珂学院。

2012-01-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY!

2012-01-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

final timetable~

seriously, i see le i want to sleep?

2012-01-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

嘿，有没有看到重点？
一、是依晨提议去捧场的。
二、小综是特地赶过去的。

好吧，我真的太激动了。

2012-01-05T09:14:00.002+08:00

咳咳，可以自动无视右边那位。
又装可爱了。。

小综笑得多开心呀，之前在找湘青，现在总算抱在怀里了吧？

嘿，把碍眼的拿掉。。

2012-01-04T17:52:00.000+08:00

推荐一部电影给大家。

info. movie. mv.

眼泪一直在眼眶中打转，可是听到那句「等你放学，我再来接你。」后就再也忍不住了。
和《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》一样，感觉整部电影，眼泪就是在为了那最后一场而酝酿的。
《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》是爱情、《父亲》是亲情。

总是向你索取却不曾说谢谢你
直到长大以后才懂得你不容易
每次离开总是装做轻松的样子
微笑着说回去吧转身泪湿眼底
多想和从前一样牵你温暖手掌
可是你不在我身旁托清风捎去安康

时光时光慢些吧不要再让你再变老了
我愿用我一切换你岁月长留
一生要强的爸爸我能为你做些什么
微不足道的关心收下吧

谢谢你做的一切双手撑起我们的家
总是竭尽所有把最好的给我
我是你的骄傲吗还在为我而担心吗
你牵挂的孩子啊长大啦~~~~~

多想和从前一样牵你温暖手掌
可是你不在我身旁托清风捎去安康

时光时光慢些吧不要再让你再变老了
我愿用我一切换你岁月长留
一生要强的爸爸我能为你做些什么
微不足道的关心收下吧

谢谢你做的一切双手撑起我们的家
总是竭尽所有把最好的给我
我是你的骄傲吗还在为我而担心吗
你牵挂的孩子啊长大啦~~~~~

时光时光慢些吧不要再让你再变老了
我愿用我一切换你岁月长留
我是你的骄傲吗还在为我而担心吗
你牵挂的孩子啊长大啦~~~~~

感谢一路上有你

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

这种时候，姓林的会喊什么咧？
当然是發啦！

2011-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

呵，英文很破，就不打了吧。

2011年的最后一天耶~
如果要我说一个字来形容今年的话，那就是「空」。
有一大半都是闲着的。
人就是这样吧？拥有的时候就是不懂得珍惜。
闲着的时候老想着赶快开学吧，然后开学了一直想着到底几时才放假啊？

2011，谐音，爱林依依~
从来不追星的我竟然闲着闲着，便开始每天点「晨堡学院」看看未读的新主题，或到「林依晨吧」查看最新的图片。
我想我应该是疯了。
她就是这样莫名的吸引着我，越了解就越被她吸引。
慢慢地，开始觉得有个偶像很不错。
慢慢地，她说的话，会不知觉的想遵从。
见鬼啦~
嗯，现在的我只想默默地当畅晨的守护者。

因为恶吻，所以认识了现在不可或缺的网友。
大家都知道，不能太相信网友。
可是，我们这帮恶迷沦陷了。
家族，不知道它能在多久，但我知道是它陪伴了我整个假期。
可以说有些还比我真实的朋友还要亲密。
因为从未见过面，所以有了那个勇气去说了平时不敢说的话。
思琪、薇、郡子、小琳，遇见你们是最美的奇迹。
相信着，将来不久我们就会见面。
呵。
还因此认了个干女儿。
萱萱~

突然发现我这个人好固执，一旦喜欢上了，就会一直喜欢。
蓝色。
我是从多小的时候就喜欢上了？
自己都不记得了。
恶吻。
看恶吻之后还看过了几部偶像剧？
多得数不清了。
但还是一直爱着。
每重温一次，都会融化。
6。
对数字特别敏感的我，一直对6情有独钟。
不知道为什么。
数学。
从小学四年级一直喜欢到现在。
很感谢那时候的补习老师让我突然“开窍”。
还有好多一直喜欢的。
现在喜欢上的依晨，我想我也会一直这样喜欢下去吧？
对于追星，印象特别深刻的就是堂姐们，崇拜的偶像形形色色，可是至今好像没有一个是固定的，咳咳。

我放下了吗？
Auntie说，需要一年的时间来恢复。
我记得那时候的我心里在想，有可能会放下吗？
但现在的我，好像真的放下了。
随着时间的流逝，我的生活渐渐地被其他东西填满。
默默地把你放在我心里的一个小角落。
其实，我知道，你一直在的。

即将20岁了。
现在缺什么吗？
嗯，人生目标。
未来，依旧很迷惘。
看来我还是没长进啊，还是不知道将来要当什么。
但我知道，我要和依晨一样，做自己喜欢的事，很努力很努力。

还有，和依晨一样，等待爱情。
我爱一个人，不是因为他是谁，而是在他面前我可以是谁。by 依晨、

我在等一个人，一个愿意走进我的生命分享我的喜怒哀乐的人，一个知道我曾经无尽的等待因而更加珍惜我的人，一个也许没能参与我的昨天却愿意和我携手走过每一个明天的人，一个知道我不完美却依然喜欢我甚至连我得不完美也一并欣赏的人。

我将在茫茫人海中寻访我唯一之灵魂伴侣。得之，我幸；不得，我命。

我深深相信，会有那么一个人用尽全力爱上我的全部。我的哭，我的笑，我的任性，我的温柔，我的依赖，我的自私，我的天真，我的粗心，我的疯狂，我的安静，还有我同样用尽全力爱上你的全部的那颗心。

所谓幸福，就是一个笨蛋遇到一个傻瓜，引来无数人的羡慕和嫉妒。风风雨雨，平平淡淡。当看着儿孙满堂时，那个笨蛋仍然喊着傻瓜！每个笨蛋，都在等着那个傻瓜的出现吧。一直，一直。

「那夜，在老公身边做着美梦。老公不知怎了，“呼”地一下坐起来，我立刻被他吓醒，还没来得及问他怎么了，那厢里便伸过一双手来，摸到我在，长长呼了一口气，重新躺倒，很快又听到鼾声。短暂静思，终悟出，原来这就是平凡的爱情。」
这个，我融化了。

当然，朋友依然重要。
不是数量，而是深度。
友情有多深呢？
送以下的文字给所有我爱的你们，特别是许久没联络的。

亲爱的朋友，原谅我渐渐少去的问候，有一种感情，不再浓烈，却一直存在。我们不能时时在身边，好像电话短信也没有了，我们不能第一时间分享彼此的快乐与不快乐，好像变的冷漠沉默了。我们不能再一起去吃饭一起说笑，好像走出彼此的世界了。可是如果有一天，我们再遇见，亲爱的，那当初的一切不会变。亲爱的朋友天冷了，记得加衣服。

因为是姐妹，你讨厌的人即便不碍我事我也会讨厌，你讲谁的坏话兴奋时我也跟着附和，我想去哪里都想你陪着，一旦发生了什么事我立刻说给你听告诉你我无助了，然后就等你拯救我，别人说我们同性恋的时候，我们都相视一笑然后说一句，你羡慕吗？我们，是朋友，姐妹，闺蜜。

一份不渝的友谊，执着千万个祝福，给我想念的朋友，温馨的问候。

真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起，就算不说话也不会感到尴尬。

从陌生到熟悉，一点一滴地累积我们的感情。有种快乐除了你，任何人都没法给予，你总是那么仗义对我充满耐性，把我爱进骨子里，再累也陪我聊天，再忙也抽时间陪我玩，感谢生命中里有你一直对我不离不弃，结婚我必须是你的伴娘，你的娃必须叫我干妈，变成老太婆必须约出来喝茶叙旧。

好朋友就像是星星。你不一定总是能见到他们，但你知道，他们会一直在那里。

亲爱的，我愿意分担你的不快乐，只是当你的世界下雨时单纯的为你撑起一把伞。请你不要封闭自己的心，一个人承受那么多。你知道的，只要你想，只要你睁开眼，你从来都不是一个人。我，一直一直都在你的身边。

我们、一起笑、一起哭、一起的曾经幼稚的青春岁月；懵懂过、期许过、曾经的约定、都要好好的。

告别2011，迎接2012。
2011再见。
2012你好。

2011-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah, let's do it again.
No, that's enough, let's not overdo it.
What do you mean overdo it?
We want to do it again.

heh.
the above conversation applies to me just learning photoshop and been spamming these few days.
can imagine alvin and the chipmunks talking?
:P

hoho.
christmas!
thank you-s to everyone who sent christmas cards~
erm, actually there's only 3?
knew it when i sent too late this year.
-.-"
do you know..
actually one stamp only cost 26 cents?
actually it takes less than 2 days for the mail to arrive?
actually there's no more actually le.
*coughs*

beiying~
hah the first card that i received!
on 21st dec.
open letterbox in hope of finding xmas cards and found yours.
looking at the handwriting and was thinking this is from you?
a bit don't believe coz i send so many years and never receive before from you.
=.=
then i opened and really it's you.
haha so i still can recognise your handwriting.
o.o
next time better write your address behind sia.
otherwise if i never receive, you can say byebye to it le.
dear old friend.
"6 going 7 years..and counting!"
love this sentence from your card.
wonder will it reach like 20 years and we're working le and still sending xmas cards?
most probably ba.
*imagines old us*
:D

nicholas~
hah received your card tgt with bei de.
i recognise your handwriting too!
then turn over and saw your address.
haha.
long time no keep in contact le.
glad that you still rmb sending xmas cards~
"We are getting older :X"
*coughs again* i not old okay?
insists on denying that i'm old.
lalala.
ya me hope that we can keep in touch too.
but seriously i have no idea how's your schedule like.
:/
eh realised i don't even know what you doing now..
okay me shall go one small corner reflect.
anyways thanks for the presents!
like every year also got small presents sia.
now i feel guilty for sending only a card.
oops.
next year shall prepare some presents too~

elva~
woman, so accurate timing huh, received on 24 dec.
great i just realised your 'woman' spread to me le.
:P
like this sentence of yours describing this year~
"It's fast, it's new, it's empty, it's emotions-filled, it's my 19."
believe me.
i'm always there.
for you.
*ahem*
okay sounds wrong.
forget it.

sent 7, received 3.
elva ?should be received le ba.
beiying ✓20 dec.
zuoer ✓20 dec.
nicholas ✓21 dec.
jiejie ✓5 jan.
meimei ✓21 dec.
干妹妹 ✓28 dec.

anyways just to clarify, i'm really fine with not being able to send me back cards~
understand that most of you are busy.
unlike me.
:/
what i said before were all just joking de.
hope no one misunderstands.
awww, suddenly miss all my friends so much.
group hug, anyone?
):

and yays.
i succeeded~
full english post.
had a hard time typing though.
lalala.

2011-12-22T10:48:00.002+08:00

to all the readers of this blog~

2011-12-20T07:19:00.000+08:00

oh dear..
this is terrible.

cap 2.9.

okay time to see what mods to take next sem le.
hmm, most probably jumping to applied maths.
as usual, everyone can ignore the following stuff.
=.=
===================================================================
B.Sc. & B.Sc. (Hons) with Major in Applied Mathematics
Course Structure for 2011/2012 and later cohorts

the above is taken from here.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
MA1101R - Linear Algebra I ☆23-Apr-2012 PM ✓
MA1104 - Multivariable Calculus ☆30-Apr-2012 AM ✓
IT1006 - MATLAB Programming for Mathematics ☆25-Apr-2012 AM ✓
GEM2505 - Taming Chaos ☆02-May-2012 PM ✓
GEM2900 - Understand'g Uncertainty & Stats Think'g ☆26-Apr-2012 PM ✓
CS1010 - Programming Methodology ☆23-Apr-2012 AM ✗
CS1010E - Programming Methodology ☆23-Apr-2012 AM ✗

Faculty modules: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/ModuleInfoListing.jsp
General Education Modules: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/GEMInfoListing.jsp
Breadth/Unrestricted Elective Modules: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/UEMInfoListing.jsp

===================================================================
*more info on 27 july post.

2011-12-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

寄圣诞卡这个习惯要归功于我小学的一位同学。
第一次收到她寄过来的卡片时，我应该只有五年级吧？
我妈说人家寄给你，你就得寄回去，这叫礼貌。
于是，我兴高采烈买了卡片就寄回给了她。
我们的友谊因此升温了。
从此，每年圣诞一到，我们都会互寄卡片，就算我们毕业了，一整年没联络，我们还是没忘了这个习惯。
直到有一年，她再也没寄过来了。
那时的我失落了好一阵子，果然，我们的友谊经不起时间的流逝。
我妈安慰我说，她不寄给你，你就寄给别人啊。
对呀，我为什么一定要寄给一个人呢，我可以寄给很多人的。
于是，我又兴高采烈买了一堆卡片，准备寄给我所有的朋友。
就这样，这个习惯一直延续着。
其实，我并不是那么的喜欢圣诞，况且我也不是什么基督徒。
只是因为这个节日在年底，我就想以这个方式记载了我们一年来的点点滴滴。
有些人，我们整年已经没有交集了，但我仍然不想失去这份友谊，只能用这个方式保持联络了。

今天花了一整个上午，写完了七封。
一边写着，一边想着我们之间的点点滴滴。
有甜蜜的、酸的、还有苦的。
或许你会发现某个字模糊了，抱歉，我忍不住落泪了，来不及擦干。
很想念很想念中学的日子，我想那应该是我最快乐的日子了，虽然中途被同学排挤，但那一点都没有毁掉我快乐的记忆，因为我有你们。
写一半的时候，突然想看看过去收到的卡片，才发现，其实，我很幸福。
我的愿望正慢慢实现中。
和朋友们一起变老，然后等我们老了以后，我们可以互相笑著十年前的我们有多么的傻。
交的每一个朋友，我都是希望我们的友情是天长地久的，这要求会不会太过份呢？

话说，今年我貌似寄得比平时迟，今天才刚寄出去的，而Post Office星期一才开工。
如果迟到了，我在这里先和大家说声Sorry了~

===================================================================
是不是只要点一根就能看到我想看见的？

原来不是随便哪一根就能让我看见我想看见的。

湘琴，你的痛，我懂。
===================================================================

2011-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

《我可能不会爱你》大结局。
程又青、李大仁，我会想你们的。

2011-12-09T19:39:00.001+08:00

两年。
疯了。
关掉手机。
在外头瞎晃了两个多小时。
为自己买了一个小礼物。
独自一人看了一部电影。
回到家不是立刻开机，而是去冲凉。
一边唱着《听见》，一边流泪。
洗完了，告诉自己：
「放纵，结束。」

2011-12-04T14:40:00.001+08:00

我说，小综你是受了什么刺激？
连双眼皮都没贴。。
-_-

我始终相信，小综就是依晨的「李大仁」。

===================================================================
我好想哭，好想哭
“李大仁”的身上全是小综的影子
每次依晨出事情，不管是依晨手术还是对于八卦的消息
小综都会站在依晨的立场上对媒体回复

依晨有了别的感情，小综又自动回避
爱她才会尊重她的选择，才会把这把这深情压抑在内心
只是希望她可以过上自己想要的幸福

最了解依晨的那个男闺密只有小综
只有小综明白并且说过：依晨是一本厚厚地读不完的书
依晨失恋了，心情不好的时候，小综又会出现在她身边

小综接受依晨固有的某些桀骜的性格
小综理解依晨身处娱乐圈的工作方式
曾经依晨说过想在教堂举婚礼
小综却改变他希望传统的婚礼，说婚礼一切听老婆的
后来依晨说更希望在海滩边举行婚礼
小综也随之改变在海滩的婚礼是他的新梦想

这是为什么？爱一个人，才会爱她所有，心甘情愿发自内心的折服
只要是她爱的，他就爱，因为最爱的那个人是她
依晨身上不完美的地方小综却觉得那是她独有魅力
“李大仁”就是小综，小综就是“李大仁”
小综再勇敢些，精诚所至，金石为开
依晨请擦亮眼睛，爱你的认不是他有多么优秀
而是即使他只有10份心意，他愿意拿出9分心意放在你心上
在最困难的时候他总会为你说话，出现你身边陪着你
===================================================================
the above is written by 小可爱YC and taken from here [畅晨吧].

2011-11-24T08:51:00.002+08:00

各大媒体，求你们饶了我们依晨吧，看得我心疼死了。

依晨，你是有多难过，还分发三个地方。。

瞿导说得好！

2011-11-17T19:36:00.001+08:00

so accurate >.<

2011-11-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

omg, can't help but replaying and replaying.
so cute!
我发花痴了。
>.<

一層給我。
「依晨」不給！
:D

2011-11-16T14:48:00.010+08:00

0.0

>.<
got no choice but to make it black and white.
everyone looks like they have a very bad cold.
-_-
next time take a better quality one la.
:D
happy birthday meimei~

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

光棍节。

舞鞋穿了洞裂了缝预备迎接一个梦
OK绷遮住痛要把苍白都填充
勇气惶恐我要用哪一种
面对他一百零一分笑容

等待的时空有点重重得时针走不动
无影踪他始终不曾降临生命中
我好想懂谁放我手心里捧
幸福啊依然长长的人龙

想踮起脚尖找寻爱远远的存在
我来不及说声嗨影子就从人海晕开
才踮起脚尖的期待只怕被亏待
我勾不着还微笑忍耐
woo~ 等你回过头来

哪天扑了空折了衷祈祷终於起作用
一阵风吹来梦却又败在难沟通
我终於懂怎麽人们的脸孔
想到爱寂寞眼眶就转红
你会回过头来 woo~ 回过头来

2011-11-08T07:43:00.001+08:00

梦见她了。
梦见她复活一星期。
高兴得哭了。
醒来发现是梦，继续哭了。
原来我一直抱着她的手臂是自己的。
原来她根本没在对我笑，是自己在笑。
原来不是她在擦干我的眼泪，是根本没人在擦。

讨厌。
讨厌自己一个人在家。
讨厌那无论你怎么哭怎么闹，就是没人会回应你。
讨厌眼泪一出来就不会再停了。

2011-10-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

been waiting since 12am, lalala~

如果她是老湘，你就是老直咯，哈哈。

2011-10-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

1029 林依晨的生日。
喜欢依晨其实已经接近五年了。
刚开始只是单纯的喜欢看她的戏，到现在的连我都认为不可思议的程度。

第一部接触依晨的戏应该就是《天外飞仙》了。
2006年11月22日，优频道就开始每周一到五晚上七点播，我就看咯，只觉得这女生真的很可爱。
刚开始的时候还一直觉得她笑声好可爱，后来才发觉那是配音，汗。。
但她本身的笑声也很可爱啦~

后来，中四那年，老妈突然迷起偶像剧来。
租来了好多偶像剧，《恶作剧之吻》就是其中一部。
那时候，树琴真的让我很疯狂，我记得，那时候，我每天都会提起他们。
额，好吧，其实现在还是。。
《恶作剧之吻》让我爱上了畅晨的组合。
那时候，《恶作剧2吻》DVD刚出，我就急着要老妈租来看。
我们两个一起疯的啊。
直树剪了短头发，帅啊。
湘琴还是一样可爱，哈。
陪着他们一起哭，一起笑。
真的好喜欢他们。

后来，消息传出，他们又要出新戏了，开心死我啊。
那时候，我和老妈窝在电脑前看着《我的亿万面包》。
畅晨的角色和《恶作剧之吻》差好远，老妈看不习惯，但还是在我坚持之下每星期追。

后来看的就是《射雕英雄传》。
优频道播，我每星期准时收看啊。
也因此爱上了《射雕英雄传》，跑去看了原文。
看着原文，脑海里浮现的都是依晨版本的黄蓉，嘿。

依晨休息了差不多两年，直到最近才有《我可能不会爱你》可以看。
觉得当年的“湘琴”真的长大了，成为一个成熟自信的“又青”。
给人一个焕然一新的感觉。

额，原来我看了六部了啊，我才知道。。
第一次那么的喜欢一个明星。
以前觉得追星很无聊。
其实现在也是。。囧
但就是因为了解她所经历过的而忍不住去心疼她爱护她。
哎，看来我中依晨毒中到无法自拔了。

依晨，你要好好的。

“你有沒有愛過一個遙遠的人，TA從來都不讓你絕望，是你繼續活下去的勇氣和力量。TA永遠是年輕的，美好的，光芒萬丈的，TA永遠在那裡，好像信仰一樣。”
看这句话时，你第一个想到的是谁呢？
我当下想的就是依晨。

2011-10-16T11:14:00.003+08:00

===================================================================
初老症状50条

1、枕头旁边，电脑键盘旁边，出现一堆万金油、白花油、绿油精等提神药方
2、只要坐下来，小腹就有一滩肉
3、莫名其妙就会一大早醒过来
4、躺在沙发看八点档连续剧30分钟就会开始熟睡
5、对于没有结论的冗长会议充满厌恶
6、觉得自己快要被一堆密码淹没了！
7、对于年轻朋友不让座这件事情会非常介意
8、对于磁场不对的人，可以毫无牵挂的跟他说再见、再见、再见⋯⋯
9、KTV热门点播排行榜的歌曲完全不会唱
10、以前可以唱KTV到天亮，现在只要熬夜一天，就会累一个礼拜
11、急于想加入facebook之类的网络活动，以免被年轻嫌弃
12、如果不喃喃自语，脑子就会打结。
13、越近的事情越容易忘记，越久以前的事情反而越是记得
14、觉得五分埔与路边摊的T恤都是给纸片人穿的
15、以前烦恼青春痘，现在烦恼小细纹
16、除非参加清早晨运的甩手功或庙会朝山活动，否则很难找到逼自己年龄大的聚会
17、对于陌生网友的「我们可以交朋友吗？」说法，觉得无比愚蠢而没有耐心
18、认识新朋友的速度与机率逐渐纯化
19、越来越觉得专家说法都是唬烂
20、如果一天没有吃绿色蔬菜就会觉得身体怪怪的
21、逐渐没有耐心替烂朋友收烂摊了
22、越来越不喜欢改变「已经习惯的习惯」
23、很讨厌在外面过夜，因为要带好多东西
24、不知不觉，随身携带温水壶和牙线棒
25、懒的交新朋友的原因，是因为懒的从头交代自己的人生
26、终于认清「老天爷真的很忙」！
27、每次看到某某歌手某某影星过世的消息，就要感叹一次，我们的时代过去了
28、总是把「重要的东西」放在「重要的地方」，然后把那个「重要的地方」彻底忘记
29、说你看过「东京爱情故事」，知道完治与莉香，周遭一片哗然
30、朋友们离婚的（数量／年度）开始超越结婚的（数量／年度）
31、对于星座、运势、紫微斗数、塔罗牌、两性专家与励志书，已经不感兴趣
32、参加告别式的机率比婚礼多，包白包的机会比包红包的机会多
33、再也不觉得年轻辣妹或帅哥是一种天上掉下来的幸福
34、以前糟蹋身体，现在被身体糟蹋
35、开始注意医药新闻，譬如银杏是不是可以预防老年痴呆
36、对于手机铃声开始感觉不耐烦
37、开始关心商品成分、制造商以及赏味期限
38、最近有件事要告诉你，可是一看见你就全忘了
39、对路边的问卷部队非常有意见
40、对诈骗集团开始产生周旋的战斗力
41、逐渐喜欢到传统市场买菜
42、最讨厌听到「如果你不怎样，就不能怎样」这种威胁
43、在床上睡不着，起床看电视去立刻在沙发上打呼了起来
44、不想起那个忘掉的名字绝不善罢干休
45、对于RAP一点好感都没有
46、一堆人喊你XX姐、XX哥，而你很想叫她们－－闭嘴！
47、讨厌过生日这件事
48、在「不好意思」和「多争取就会赚到」两者间，渐渐倒向了后者
49、对超商的焦点活动完全没兴趣
50、对完美起疑，对不完美深信不疑！
===================================================================
囧，我竟然占了16条。
这可是为30岁的人而设的啊。。

2011-10-16T11:10:00.001+08:00

今天不知怎么地，竟然有那个兴致听老爸说完以前的事。
好吧，我承认以前他说的时候，我总是听一半就没兴趣了。。
就这样，我在今天总算是终于完全了解我自己的“历史”了。
囧，怎么说到好像我很老似的。

感谢某杂志举办笔友，让我父母相遇。
感谢老爸另一个的笔友比我老妈还要肥，让我老爸果断选了我老妈认识。
感谢我老爸老妈愿意为了我的奶粉钱而吃面包挨日子挨了两三个月。
感谢那个路人甲在我们老爸老妈正愁没钱买奶粉的时候，掉了美金让我老爸拾到，不然我早饿死了。
感谢佛祖显灵让我老爸老妈中马票，让我能顺利开刀住院。

我想，没有这些的帮助，我可能不在这世上了。
也突然觉得，我好像很败家。。

但这也是老爸所谓的先苦后甜吧，没有之前的苦，也不会有现在的甜。
虽然还不是很富裕，但至少我们现在三餐温饱，也不用老愁没钱。

2011-10-13T08:59:00.001+08:00

(1) MRT: Tampines to Buona Vista + Bus 95 = $1.83 per trip.
1 day = $3.66
1 month = $109.80

(2) MRT: Tampines to Kent Ridge = $1.92 per trip.
1 day = $3.84
1 month = $115.20

Bus Concession = $52.00
Train Concession = $45.00
Hybrid Concession = $97.00

(1) save $12.80 per month; (2) save $70.20 per month.

0.0
conclusion, me want buy train concession le!

2011-09-29T12:56:00.004+08:00

===================================================================
你变了。
你变了。
自从你知道有那人的存在后，你变了。
说的话题都离不开她。
你要我这个完全不认识她的怎么回应你。
根本没有不让你说，但我真的不知道该怎么反应，又深怕说了不该说的，惹到你。
每个人都会喜欢不同的东西、人。
但不能强求别人去喜欢你喜欢的。
喜欢不同东西的，就不能是朋友吗？

感觉，以前那吵着要我陪熬夜的你，消失在我回忆里了。
感觉，以前那当我哭着的时候安慰我的前辈，也消失了。
现在的你眼里只有她。
感觉，其他人，对你而言，已经不比她重要了。
真的很不希望，我们因为一个我压根不认识的人而决裂。
我甚至开始有点讨厌那人，虽然我完全不知道她，就因为她抢走了我很好很好的嫂子。
哥，没了，没感觉。
但，嫂子，没了，那就不是家了。
我们五个人，缺一不可。
少了一个人，那就再也不是家了。
真的。
没有谁会抛弃任何人，除非你自己先放弃。

哎，在食堂打这日志的，不知不觉，泪水就这样累积在眼眶里。
昨晚，我失眠了。
我一向来只有隔天有让我压力大的事才会失眠的。
但昨晚，我却失眠了，这是第一次我不是因为上面那理由而失眠。
想了好多，想到了我们这半年来的点点滴滴。
难道我们要因为一个人而失去那些温暖吗。。
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
半年的点点滴滴，汇聚成一条河，淡去的一切，记忆的门却不曾关上，一切都幻化为过去，假如有一天，我们都将告别这浩渺的网路世界，那么，我们是否都会成为彼此生命中的微风，吹过，不留一丝痕迹。
扪心自问，你变了吗？你变了，没错，你真的变了，很多天了，我留意的很多天了，以前你不是这样的，曾经我亲爱的嫂子，曾经跟我吵吵闹闹的嫂子，你哪里去了，细数你变化的日子，为了这个人，你变了，变得我们捉摸不透，为了这个人，你把自己弄丢了，我们该如何寻你回来？难道，真的要为了一个人而失去这个温暖的家吗？
不知不觉，泪水聚集在眼里，眨眼的瞬间，泪水滑落，一切只因为，你变了。
我们五个人，缺一不可，没有谁不需要谁了，事实上，我们分不开，分开了，这个家还是当初那个家吗？不是了。
嫂子，难道，你的心中，我们四个人的分量真的抵不过她吗？为了她，你甚至愿意离开，使我们的家决裂吗？
===================================================================
一切，只因为“她”
在这半年里，认识了你们，真的是我一辈子最美好的回忆之一。
常听人家说，在这虚无缥缈的网路世界里，不可释放过多的感情，否则，最后一定会伤痕累累。以前的我，也一直这么的认为。
但是，在我认识了你们四个之后，我真的越陷越深了。
我每天一上线，就会习惯的爬上QQ，看看你们在不在；工作的时候，老是期待时间快点儿过去，让我回家找你们；晚上，我也不愿意睡觉，只因为你们都还在。
尽管我知道我真的陷入了这个网路世界里，但我心甘情愿。只因为你们是我的好朋友、好知己、好姐妹。
在我拿到成绩，心惊胆跳的等待大学通知书，最难过的时候，是你们陪我走过。珂珂、小琳子、嫂子、姐……你们都安慰我，让我知道，其实我也不是真的那么笨，那么没用的。所以我才能够打起精神，努力说服我父母，让我进入私立大学完成我的梦想。
但是，最近，出现了一个名唤“刘忻”的人，把我们的感情分离了。她让我最可爱的嫂子，成天情绪阴晴不定，让我每次跟她讲话的时候，都要小心翼翼的，我不喜欢这种感觉！嫂子，你看见没有，我真的不喜欢这种感觉！这种小心翼翼的感觉让我恨透了“她”！
这一个我完全不了解，不知道的人，把我最可爱的嫂子夺走了。
嫂子，你一直说，我们不需要你了，其实不是的！我真的很需要你，但是，你那捉摸不定的情绪，让我不敢很畅快的跟你聊天，就像以前一样。我很怕，不知道哪一句玩笑话会让你觉得我侵犯了你的偶像，不知道那一句话会令你感到我对你的不尊重。所以，我越渐沉默。
我一直都在家族群的。我只是不说话，只因为我融入不了你的话题。但是，我没想到我的沉默，反而让你误会，以为我因为你一直聊刘忻而屏蔽了家族群。真是冤枉到了极点。我的QQ就是为了家族群而开的，不管我屏蔽了多少的群，都不会屏蔽家族群的。这句话，我说过的，你忘了吗？
嫂子，就像珂珂说的，我们五个，缺一不可。就像一颗★，缺了一角，就不完美了。
嫂子，就像姐说的，你不能离开，我们需要你，不要让我们去抓你哦！
嫂子，这是我说的，我非常爱你，我很需要你，不要轻言离开，这会让我感到非常难过。

不管怎么说，一切的一切，都只因为“她”，让我们五个人的感情面临了考验，我的情绪是有点矛盾的。
我很感谢“她”的出现，因为“她”，我们才会面临了分离的考验。
一份感情，如果永远都平平静静的，我们永远都不会知道，我们的感情可以有多深，可以有多坚固。
我很讨厌“她”的出现，因为“她”，我们才会面临了分离的考验。
“她”让我们失去了那最可爱的嫂子，也让我知道，原来我们五个之间半年的感情，居然也会让一个陌生人侵入，甚至破裂。

嫂子，如果你看见我们的日志，却还是认为刘忻比我们重要，那，我也无话可说了。。
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
我期待以前那可爱的嫂子回到我们身边，融入我们这个辛苦建立起来的家，不要因为那一个名唤“刘忻”的人使我们的感情分离，今天，恐怕是我泪水流过最多的一天，这一切，只因为我想要你变回以前我那可爱的嫂子。虽然我们整天吵吵闹闹，可是你明白那是我对你爱的表达方式吗？
我的爱很纯粹，我爱你们四个人;我的爱很简单，我希望你们四个人幸福。
我们不反对你爱刘忻，但你能把你的这份爱隐藏在心底吗？
曾几何时，我们那可爱的嫂子不复存在；
曾几何时，整天和我吵吵闹闹的嫂子消失在我的记忆；
曾几何时，我们五人的感情那么好，那么真；
曾经，我是矛盾的，我恨“她”的出现，我也感谢“她”的出现。
嫂子，如果你看见了，请相信，这是我们四个人的心声，如果，我们四个人在你心里还有一定位置，请你，变回来，变回到我们那可爱的嫂子。
曾经的嫂子，我们想你，真的好想好想。。。
===================================================================
我一直都需要你们，不能抛弃我！！！
当我看见妈咪和二姨的日志和大姨的邮件后，我真的很感动，所以我也打算写一篇日志，来表达我我感受，我真的。。。真的很需要你们！！！你们永远都是我的最强后盾。从3月开始到现在，不经不觉，我已经加入这个大家庭有半年了，在这半年来，有开心。
有不开心的事！！但真真正正令我有安全感，明白家庭中不能没有任何人的只有四个。这四个人就是思琪大姨，薇二姨，珂妈咪和郡子舅母。你们都是我从狂想吧认识的，我还记得我第一个认识的就是珂妈咪，那时候的我刚刚开始我的文章，我曾经一度认为自己写得不好，但是因为妈咪的出现和支持，令我觉得我不可以令她失望，我希望写一个完美的结局给她看，其次是思琪大姨，我记得有一天，她加了我的qq，和我说话，我真的是受宠若惊，因为我申请qq后，我的朋友还是很少，根本不会有人主动加我，所以我真的很开心，第三是薇二姨，我记得我也是狂想吧认识你的，你的改文，我真的很喜欢看，我猜不到你真的会看我的留言，还会回复，最后的是郡子舅母，我也是因为看她的改文而认识她的，能够认识你们，真是我最开心的事！！！直至现在，我们五个从姐妹相称到以妈咪，大姨。。二姨。。和舅母来称呼大家，虽然我是最小的一个，但是我在你们的身上真的学了不少东西，亲情的可贵，有人说网上认识的人，因为不知道大家的背景，应该不可以交心的，但是我对你们四个是真的交出了心，你们有什么事都会和我分享，都会告诉我，这些是我在现实中感受不到的，说真的，我在现实中的朋友真的很少，你们的出现令我对"友谊"二字重拾信心！
我真的希望我们五个的友谊是永长存，永远不变的~~~

最近因为一场快女比赛，令舅母喜欢上一个叫刘忻的人，我认为喜欢她是没有错，因为我自己也非常喜欢依晨！！之前我完全不了解你为什么这么喜欢她，现在我知道了，但是我仍然希望你可以变回之前的你，舅母，你还记得我们因为婷儿的事而吵起来吗？？
那时候我不明白你为什么一定要知道婷儿的事，也不明白你为什么相信其它人的话。也不愿意相信我和珂妈咪的话，那时候我开始质疑我们的友谊是不是真的不能遇上考验，你为什么会变成这样？？？

我们五个来自不同的地方，但是这样也能还我们认识，这就证明我们五个的友谊是早注定的，你们不能抛弃我，因为我也不会抛弃你们，没有你们，就不会有一个全新的我，没有你们，就不会有这个家族，没有你们，就不会出现一个个的承诺，你们对我的承诺，我一直都记得的！！！

这个家族有你们就有我，我真的很需要你们，我们的家族得来不易，如果没有了你们，根本就不会有这么多的话题，这么多的欢乐存在，这一份的感情是不变的，我真的很难想象没有了你们，我会怎样？？

『思琪大姨，我爱你！！！
珂妈咪，我爱你！！！
薇二姨，我爱你！！！
郡子舅母，我爱你！！！』

这四句我爱你，是我对你们的感情，我一直都藏在心里，不曾说出口，我希望你们明白，你们对我是说是很重要的，是不能少了其中一个的，我们是一体的！！！
===================================================================

突然想为我们五个人写篇日志，这篇日志，是只属于我们五个，是只属于我们自己的。

在我们五个人里，我记得我最先认识的应该是珂珂、

我们是在恶作剧狂想吧里认识的。

直到家族成立、我渐渐结识了好多人、

那个时候、只是我一个人在狂想吧里胡乱逛、

渐渐的、有我，珂珂，薇薇，琳子还有嫂子吧。

我是我们里面最大的、还记得你们叫我姐姐的时刻、

现在也很喜欢你们、说爱也不过分、

虽然呢，老是和嫂子吵吵闹闹、

却也从来不影响我们之间的感情、

亲爱的、你不能离开、我们需要你、

千万不要我们去抓你哦、

嫂子、我爱你、这辈子都爱你。一直

然后是珂珂、

我们的相识是因为恶吻、

可是。我庆幸我爱上恶吻，因为恶吻使我认识你。

亲爱的。有段时间、让我感觉就只有你了。

那时候你就是我的唯一。

有你是我最大的幸福、失去你。是我最大的遗憾、

所以、你不能离开我哦、

你说我们五个缺一不可、

只要我们其中一个离开了、你都会一个个的把我们抓回来。

亲爱的。这是你给我的承诺、

珂珂、我爱你。这辈子都爱你。一直

再是薇薇、

我们的相识是因为珂珂、

她让我们联系在一起、

明明比我小、却感觉比我经历的多、

亲爱的、你经受的、我懂，我心痛、

不要再上通宵了哦。对身体不好、你要好好照顾自己嘛、

要好好的、

薇薇、我爱你。这辈子都爱你、一直

最后是琳子、

亲爱的琳子、还记得我们如何相识吗、

还记得、我让你去试探一个男的、

现在想想、觉得好好笑哦、嘻嘻、

亲爱的、我不能失去你、

不知道

没有我们的日子、会不会很想我们呢？

琳子、我爱你。这辈子都爱你、一直

还有我、

不知道你们有没有发现呢？

我有点儿小孩脾气，有点儿任性、

嘻嘻。、

我们五个是不能分离的

思琪、薇薇、珂珂、郡子、琳子

嫂子和琳子不能俩个人聊秘密。

自私、让我们五个都知道嘛、

如果涐们一直旳微笑，涐们就一直旳坚强。
如果涐们一直旳微笑，涐们就一直旳幸福。

===================================================================

2011-09-27T17:54:00.005+08:00

其实，幸福很简单。
我的幸福，就是回到家的时候，雷兴奋地向我摇着尾巴。
真的觉得，那一刻，我是幸福的。

2011-09-25T23:25:00.003+08:00

许豪恩。
好吧，我现在才知道他叫什么名。
而且，我刚刚才得知他就是依晨好几首歌MV的那个男主角。
完全没把他们联想在一起耶。。
真糟糕，我认人的能力真的还不是一般的差。

话说，这照片不是很好看，可是他在剧里面真的有帅到啦。
只要有他和依晨的画面都好美~
又青，不要和大仁在一起啦，就和你助理一起好了，嘻嘻。

啦啦，每个星期天，九点四十分，准时收看民视的《我可能不会爱你》。

2011-09-14T21:40:00.004+08:00

我
你
我你
我爱你
我不爱你
我不会爱你
我不可能会爱你
我可能不会爱你
我可能会不爱你
我会不爱你
我会爱你
我爱你
我爱
你

2011-09-11T20:01:00.013+08:00

===================================================================
写给最爱的妹妹——薇薇
偶可爱滴妹妹：
哈哈！薇薇你一定想不到姐姐会写信给你吧！其实我也不知道为什么会想要写这一封信给你。如果真的要一个理由的话，那就是太爱你了吧。
这些我想告诉你的话，都来自我的真心，很庆幸能在虚幻的网络里认识你。薇薇，记得我们最初认识好像也是通过你的文文吧！
当时还闹了一个大笑话，我们竟然几度姐妹分不清，转眼我们已经认识好几个月了，你也陪我走过了或许是我人生最低谷的时候。
首先，我想谢谢你，谢谢你陪着我走过了我的人生低谷，也谢谢你带给我的快乐与感动！更谢谢你对我的支持，这一切的一切，我铭记于心。
再就是，姐姐想对你说的一些话：
记得，你在我的日志里留言过一句话：我们是注定要当姐妹的么？我想，是的吧。
也记得，你说你从一个开朗、活泼的小女孩，变成一个安静、孤僻的女孩，当时姐姐看了，我的心很疼。我能够了解你那时那刻对人生的迷惘与彷徨，这也是我同样所经历过的。姐姐希望你知道：活着，就要热爱着，努力着，坚强着，试着把这个世界想象得多么美好，现实不是用来哀叹，决不能因为诸多挫折走向迷惘。终人一生，不知要经历多少雨雪风霜，与其把生命浪费在怨天尤人上，不如在风雨中学会坚强。
人生一定有峰回路转，努力后一定会柳暗花明。即使真的有无数无奈，我们也要只要我们不丧失内心的希望，就一定能够度过人生的坎坷风霜，迎接生命的灿烂。遭遇一些苦楚，面对很多磨难并不是坏事，因为苦难使人坚强，使人勇敢。
亲爱的妹妹，不要奢求人生给予我们太多的幸运，更不要抱怨人生的不公平，如果我们能改变自己的命运，就奋勇前行，如果我们不能，则在内心中保持坦然和坚韧，把一切的磨难当作一场真正的考验吧！还记得，你说我比你幸福！是啊，姐姐确实比你幸福，同样的，姐姐也希望你能和姐姐一样幸福。
记得，每逢挫折珠泪零落时，要想着姐姐总是深刻地眷恋和深爱着你。无论何时，要永远保持对生命和真情的热忱，不管怎样都要坚强屹立勇敢面对。亲爱的妹妹，无论何时，姐姐都陪着你，相信，明天的你一定是坚韧的你，优秀的你！
和你聊天真的很开心！我一直以来都不喜欢和人聊个无休无止，除了你！
虽然我们对彼此一知半解，甚至连真实的名字，身份，模样都不曾知道，但我知道你是一个好女孩，会有很好的将来！而我期望的也是这样。记得我们的承诺吗？记得我们的诺言吗？期待见面！！
恩！姐姐就写到这里了！
就此搁笔！！
姐姐
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
写给最疼的妹妹——珂珂
偶最疼的妹妹：
因为狂想，你我相知；因为共同的爱好，你我相识；因为相似的经历，你我惺惺相惜。我我从来没有想到过，认识贴吧，爱上恶吻，我会得到了一个好妹妹。
认真算来，认识珂珂你已经好几个月了，你是我玩贴吧认识的第一个吧友，我们从一开始的不相识，到现在的熟悉，真的好开心，这几个月来有你的相伴，在我不开心不如意的时候，有你的关心，有你的问候，姐知足了~~
就让我在这里对你们说一声谢谢吧！！
我们虽未谋面，但我真心把你当成我最疼的妹妹，虽然我们是在网络认识的，但虚拟的网络绵延着真实的快乐。
曾经一度以为好不容易能有一个姐姐，想不到，你还是比我小，不过也很庆幸有你这样一个妹妹。
还记得我们一起发霉的日子，还记得共同许下的诺言：我会陪你…… 珂珂，我一直把你当我最疼的妹妹，薇薇是我最爱的妹妹，你是我最疼的妹妹，两者并不冲突，我的心底一直有你们两人的位置。
在某些方面，我们是相同的，我们有相同的际遇，这也许就是缘分吧。
姐姐不会忘记你，更不会收回关心你、关注你的双眼！
你开心了，笑在姐姐脸上，你伤心了，泪在姐姐眼里！
我们的缘分是上天注定的，我们一定要一路携手同行！
亲爱的妹妹，希望你能够对姐姐无话不谈，这是千年修来的缘分，如果真的能够这样，那么谢谢你对姐姐的信任，珍惜我们的相逢吧，谁不想有一份友谊可以温暖一生。
写到这，我突然有种愿望：今生如有机会能和妹妹见上一面。愿我们姐妹情谊天长地久！
恩！姐姐就写到这里了！
就此搁笔！
姐姐
===================================================================
天啊，连续两天被朋友感动到了。。
大姐，我爱你~
额，当然，二姐，我一向来都爱的~

嗯，我也爱我老公~
哇咔，我是有夫之妇。
嘻嘻。

2011-09-11T00:28:00.003+08:00

你可知道，你在屏幕上哭泣时，在屏幕前的我同时也在哭泣。。
click here!

我爱你，不解释。

2011-08-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

额，人家挂国旗，他挂什么？

2011-08-21T12:29:00.005+08:00

0.0
this person so scary.
don't play play sia..
9th floor ley.

2011-08-20T20:16:00.012+08:00

nice scenery photos!
haha.
very long nv take scenery photos liao.
took them while on the search for ariel just now.
but too bad nv see her.
kind of disappointed.
sighs.

2011-07-27T10:21:00.051+08:00

okay everyone can just ignore this post.
i'm going to put all the info here.
seriously lost.
===================================================================
1)University Level Requirements
General Education
Singapore Studies
Breadth Modules
2)Programme Requirements
Faculty Requirements
Major Requirements
3)Unrestricted Elective Modules
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Breadth: Any modules outside FoS
Unrestricted Elective: Any modules except modules related to Major

You need to take 2 Breadths, 2 GEMs (1 from Group A and 1 from Group B), 1 SS, 7 UEs
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
GE modules fall into two main Subject Groups as follows:

Group A - Science & Technology
Group B - Humanities & Social Sciences

Science students are required to read 2 GEMs, of which at least one should come from Subject Group B. This gives Science students exposure to the knowledge and ways of thinking in the area of Humanities and Social Sciences.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Basic Degree Requirements for the Bachelor’s and Bachelor with Honours Programmes

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sample schedule for students matriculated in AY2007/08 or later:
Major in Mathematics

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Faculty Requirements
Students reading MA (mathematics) or AM (applied mathematics) major may fulfil faculty requirements using modules from any three of these subject groups: Computing Sciences, Chemical Sciences, Life Sciences and Physical Sciences.

Table of Subject Groups

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Modules Info: http://www.nus.edu.sg/cors/schedule.html#corsmodinfo
Faculty modules: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/ModuleInfoListing.jsp
GEM: http://www.nus.edu.sg/gem/
Singapore Studies Modules: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/SSMInfoListing.jsp
UE/Breadth: https://aces01.nus.edu.sg/cors/jsp/report/UEMInfoListing.jsp
Timetable Builder: https://webrb.nus.edu.sg/ctt/builder.aspx
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
GEM
GEK1511 - Introduction to Computing ☆25-Nov-2011 AM
GEK1517 - Mathematical Thinking ☆26-Nov-2011 AM
GEM2900 - Understand'g Uncertainty & Stats Think'gg ☆26-Nov-2011 PM
GEM2901 - Reporting Statistics in the Media ☆21-Nov-2011 AM

Singapore Studies
SSS1207 - Natural Heritage of Singapore [):]

Major Requirements
MA1100 - Fundamental Concepts of Mathematics ☆22-Nov-2011 PM
MA1102R - Calculus ☆21-Nov-2011 PM

Faculty Requirements
PC1141 - Physics I ☆21-Nov-2011 PM
PC1322 - Understanding the Universe ☆
PC1431 - Physics IE ☆17-Nov-2011 PM

UE/Breadth
CL1101E - Introduction to Chinese Language ☆21-Nov-2011 PM
EG1108 - Electrical Engineering ☆21-Nov-2011 PM
CS1010E - Programming Methodology ☆19-Nov-2011 PM
EE2020 - Digital Fundamentals ☆30-Nov-2011 PM
===================================================================
so i take..?
and i'm confused over the ue and faculty req..
aren't they like somehow the same?
okay i'm 自言自语-ing.
hello, anyone here?
answer my n qns~
===================================================================
MA1100 - Fundamental Concepts of Mathematics ☆22-Nov-2011 PM
MA1102R - Calculus ☆21-Nov-2011 PM
GEK1517 - Mathematical Thinking ☆26-Nov-2011 AM
PC1431 - Physics IE ☆17-Nov-2011 PM
EC1301 - Principles of Economics ☆19-Nov-2011 AM
===================================================================

2011-07-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

===================================================================
Career Prospects
Am I right to say that I can only go into teaching with a mathematics degree?
This is very far from the truth. Mathematics graduates are much in demand wherever quantitative analysis is needed and/or rigorous, objective, critical analysis is valued. They are widely employed in commerce, industry and government sectors.

What sort of jobs and industries can I seek employment in?
The various areas that our mathematics graduates can build a career include operations management, financial analysis, risk management, information processing, IT, administration, education and research. The following are some examples:

How is mathematics relevant to these jobs?
There are many mathematics courses that prepare a mathematics major student with the relevant skills to work in the specific area. The mathematics training in general also equips students with the analytical skills that are essential in many jobs, especially executive works. The table below serves as a guide.

===================================================================
so can everyone stop asking whether i doing teaching anot..

2011-07-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

亲爱的妈咪：
我真的好想你。
你知道吗？你已经离开我592天9小时25分钟了。
你怎么就那么狠心就这样把我丢下，独自一人走了呢？
而且不给我任何心理准备，就把我抛下。
你要过了17年多只和你相偎相依的我接下来的日子怎么过？
世界没了你，就像世界没了彩色。
考试考得再好，有什么用？
我又没人可以炫耀。
每次到有和你的记忆的地方，泪水就忍不住掉下来。
一个人走在街上，看到每个人不是有朋友的陪伴，就是有父母的拥护，真的觉得好寂寞。
曾经的我也是如此的幸福，和你手牵着手走在街上，也不怕别人笑话。
怎样，17岁了就不能和母亲手牵着手逛街吗？
可是现在都没了，我只能在一旁干巴巴地羡慕着。

你在天上，没有我照顾，会好么？
有没有想我呢？
有好多好多话想和你说，可是见不到你，我说不出来。
你知道吗？
你一直期盼我考上的国大，我考上了。
得知这个消息，我第一个就是想和你分享。
可是你，不在了。
再也没人能聆听我说的一切。
再也没人，在我难过的时候，给我一个温暖的拥抱。
再也没人，在我开心的时候，第一个和我分享我的喜悦。
再也没人，拍着我的头，说，那是当然的，我女儿最乖了。
再也没人。。

我说不下去了。
哭得我快不能呼吸了。
妈咪，今天是你的生日。
这是你第二个我没和你过的生日，我把这封信送给你当作生日礼物了。

妈咪，生日快乐。

哪天，我撑不下去，我就去找你。
你，一定要等我。
我还等着你的怀抱。

2011-07-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

===================================================================
FoS Dean’s Welcome Tea 2011
Friday, 22 July 2011
Venue: Lecture Theatre 27, 28 and 29

LT27
0850-0900 Video Presentation by Science Club
0900-0930 The ABC of Enriching Your University Life by Assoc. Prof. Chin Wee Shong, Vice-Dean (Outreach & Student Life)
0930-1100 Introduction to NUS Modular System & Science Curriculum by Assoc. Prof. Chua Tin Chiu, Associate Dean (Undergraduate Programmes)
1100-1145 Introduction to the Centralised Online Registration System (CORS) and E-Learning & Q&A Session by Assoc. Prof. Tay Seng Chuan, Associate Dean (Special Duties)
1145-1210 Welcome Address & Introduction to Deanery and Programme Directors by Professor Andrew Wee, Dean of Science
1210-1300 Lunch Reception @ foyer of LT27
1300-1330 Programme Talk: Chemistry & Applied Chemistry Programmes by Assoc. Prof. Lai Yee Hing
1400-1430 Talk: Mathematics, Applied Mathematics & Quantitative Finance Programmes by Dr Ng Kah Loon
1430-1500 Programme Talk: “Physics @ NUS” by Assoc. Prof. Edward Teo
1500-1530 Programme Talk: Statistics & Applied Probability Programme by Assoc. Prof. Lim Tiong Wee
1530-1600 Introduction to Science Club by Mr. Kenneth Lee, Science Club President
1600-1630 Programme Talk: Special Programme in Science by Assoc. Prof. Helmer Aslaksen

LT29
1300-1330 NUS Overseas Colleges / iLead Introductory Talk by Ms. Juliana Hartono
1400-1430 Programme Talk: Food Science & Technology @ NUS: The one & only!! by Professor Zhou Weibiao
1430-1500 Medical/Science Library Presentation by Ms. Loh Mee Lan
1500-1530 NUS Mental Fitness Guide by Mr. Duane Ong Shao-Wen
1530-1600 Programme Talk: Computational Biology “AQuantitative and Multi-disciplinary Approach to Solving Biological Problems” by Assoc. Prof. Low Boon Chuan
1600-1630 NUS Career Centre Presentation by Ms. Josephine Cai
===================================================================
哇哇哇，你可以再闷一点。。
我可以不要去了吗？

2011-07-18T12:51:00.003+08:00

2011-07-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

重庆正宗老火锅
CHONG QING TRADITIONAL STEAMBOAT
(opp. Kallang MRT station)

buffet.

price.
$15 per adult, $8 per child.
no ++.

drinks.
1st can free, $1 each for 2nd can onwards.

carpark.
opp restaurant.
free from 5pm onwards mon to sat.
sun and public hols free whole day.

heheh.
just went there to eat.
actually went there to try the one that tv keep advertising de.
what 大长今..
eh still not sure what's the full name.

but we from carpark walk there on the way saw this restaurant and went in instead.
>.<

no aircon.
but fan is enough.
at least i didn't sweat alot.
okay partly coz we were sitting in front of this gigantic fan.
-.-

food.
hmm normal steamboat stuff lo.
but the seafood is definitely fresh.
at least that's what my father said.
he tried almost all the seafood there.
i only ate the prawns.
and yup they're fresh and big somemore.

crab.
you order then they kill on the spot.
FRESH.

cooked food.
hmm don't try this.
all cold de.

watermelon.
hah love eating watermelon after steamboat.
reminds me that time with elva they all.
watermelon spamming time sia.
hee.

service.
erm opened by china ppl.
but they're friendly enough.
one thing not good is that they never clear your table while you eat de.
so you have to bear with all the shells and stuff until you leave.

one joke to share.
the waitress was shouting “老虎” to another waitress. (i think she meant tiger beer.)
i heard “着火” and my father heard “九号”..
the table besides us have like another four different versions.
=.= at china ppl.
okay anyways i don't believe on fire le everyone still eating so happily and the person shouting that still standing there..
-.-

warning.
alot china ppl there.
hah meimei won't like it there.

heheh the fresh seafood promises another return for me and my father.

2011-07-10T10:14:00.000+08:00

1、我需要告诉你一个秘密，请看5。
2、答案请看11。
3、不要生气，请看15。
4、冷静，不要生气，请看13。
5、首先，请看2。
6、不要那么生气，请看12。
7、我只想告诉你，我爱你。
8、我想告诉你的是，答案在14。
9、请耐心地看4。
10、这是我最后一次这样做了，请看7。
11、我希望你不要生气，当我让你看6。
12、抱歉，请看8。
13、不要生气，请看10。
14、我不知道怎么说，但请看3。
15、你一定十分生气，请看9。

2011-07-08T11:35:00.004+08:00

这是一张静止的图片，你的心理压力越大，图片转动越快，而儿童看这幅图片一般是静止的。测试下您心理的压力~

2011-07-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

==============================================================
Dear Science Students,

A very warm welcome to all of you.

Congratulations for your successful admission into NUS Faculty of Science!

As new students, some of you may find University life an overwhelming experience but fret not! In the Faculty of Science, we help you to settle down quickly in our challenging, but warm and family-oriented environment. To begin with, we would like to invite you to the Faculty of Science - Dean’s Welcome Tea on 22 July 2011 (Friday). It is specially arranged for all freshmen of the Faculty.

Our Dean of Science, Professor Andrew Wee, will be hosting the event. You will be introduced to key personnel in the Faculty and Departments. Through this event and other programme talks, you will be able to receive important faculty-, course- and module-specific information, which will be very useful and relevant for you when you start your first semester with us. Hence, we strongly encourage you to attend the Dean’s Welcome Tea as it will give you a better and clearer understanding of your degree requirements. On a separate note, we would like to remind you that your Registration Day as a Science student is on 25 July 2011 (Monday).

Details of the Dean's Welcome Tea are as follows:

Date: 22 July 2011 (Friday)
Time: 8:50 am – 4:30 pm
Venue: Lim Seng Tjoe Lecture Theatre (LT27)

We will send you the detailed programme and schedule of talks via email nearer to the date.

To facilitate our planning for the event, please RSVP your attendance by 12 July 2011 at this website: https://neon.science.nus.edu.sg/intranet/public/events/welcome_tea/index.html
For further enquiries on the event, you may contact the Undergraduate Programmes Office enquiry line at Tel: 6516 8471, or Ms Koh Wei Kee at Tel: 6516 6890, or Ms Vijaya at Tel: 660 11480.

Last but not least, we encourage you to embrace the many learning opportunities that will be available to you as a Science student and hope that you will enjoy your experiences here.

Wishing you all the best in your academic endeavours!

Best regards,
Undergraduate Programmes Office
Faculty of Science
==============================================================
hmm.
should i go?

2011-07-06T12:25:00.004+08:00

argh.
need to sign up?!
can i don't..
i just want to be a 路人甲。

[edit]
confirmed coming near end of august or start of september.
[/edit]

2011-06-30T11:40:00.005+08:00

omg i'm so excited.
this is the first time she's coming here?
or if not, at least the first time i know she's coming here.
哇咔咔，我要去当路人甲~

2011-06-28T09:31:00.001+08:00

stupid microsoft.
it've been two days.
砍死你~
扔你桌子~
踩死你~
打你~
让你变黑炭~
炸弹炸死你~
打~
左拳右拳~

this tells me to stop using msn.
any other im to suggest?

2011-06-22T09:40:00.000+08:00

"Dear Ex-Meridian, SGC & Cert are ready for collection during office hrs (Mon-Fri 9am-5pm). From MJC Admin"

anyone want go with me?^^

2011-06-19T00:00:00.055+08:00

619 郑元畅的生日。
说我是畅晨粉，还真有点小心虚。
准确来说，我应该算草莓（依晨粉），然后爱屋及乌，连带也喜欢郑元畅的。
我对他实在不是很了解。
不知从何时喜欢依晨的，但我记得我只要是有她的电视剧，我都会喜欢。
新加坡播的电视剧，有她的实在很少。
从《天外飞仙》到特地租碟看的《恶作剧之吻》、《恶作剧2吻》到最近播的《射雕英雄传》。
每部剧都让我印象深刻，慢慢地喜欢上这个可爱的女生。
有人问我，最近怎么开始喜欢她？
其实我早就喜欢她了，只是最近混上百度贴吧，对她的喜欢才表现出来。
了解我的人应该都知道，我实在不是那种追星的人。
喜欢她，我想最疯狂的事最多只是收集她的照片罢了。
汗，说出来，感觉还蛮。。咳咳，好吧，我太理智了。
而且我怎么跑题了？
今天主角是郑元畅啦。
可是，对他貌似没什么话说耶，先让我想想。。
好吧，就祝福他，赶快找到他的另一半~
既然依晨已经找到她的“郑先生”了。
唉，这样说，心里还是有点小小的遗憾。
畅晨、树琴、法美，将会是我心中永远最美好的回忆。

2011-06-06T15:07:00.004+08:00

o.O

2011-05-29T09:25:00.000+08:00

从何时开始，我变得如此的懦弱？
从何时开始，泪水是那么的迫不及待地想要滑落？

我讨厌自己，讨厌现在的自己，讨厌现在那个轻易掉眼泪的自己。

变了，真的变了，回不到以前了。

她走了。
那唯一能牵动我泪水的她，走了。
但。
但她依然还是能牵动我的泪水。
或者应该说，变本加厉了。

泪水轻轻地累积。
泪水静静地滑落。
那么轻易地落下来，让我觉得它是如此的廉价。

泪，真的很累。

2011-05-26T10:04:00.001+08:00

hmm.
seriously have nth to post.
share some good news?

==============================================================
A Division Football Final: Last-minute VJC goal ruled offside allows 10-man MJC to hold on for 1-0 victory

Jalan Besar Stadium, Tuesday, May 24, 2011 — Meridian Junior College (MJC) won the National A Division Football Championship title by the narrowest of margins when they beat Victoria Junior College (VJC) 1-0 through a first-half Muhammad Hairi (MJC #23) goal.
The boys in blue defended heroically in the last 40 minutes of the match after they went down to 10 men following a red card for their goalkeeper Daniel Lightfoot in the opening minutes of the second half.
VJC also had a last-minute goal ruled out under controversial circumstances when Santosh Magar (VJC #11) was deemed to be offside after Anuruddhan’s (VJC #15) spectacular overhead kick rebounded off the crossbar.
The first chance of the match came in the fifth minute for MJC. Muhammad Amsyar (MJC #8) made full use of his pace to get a cross in from the left for Muhammad Hairi (MJC #23). However, Hairi could not get enough power into the shot and Tilwa Raj (VJC #1) saved comfortably down low.
VJC had slightly more possession but could hardly get a shot on target, with their closest attempt a free header by Khairul Anwar (VJC #16) which went just wide from a Dilip Thapa (VJC #10) free kick.
The deadlock was finally broken in the 22nd minute when a perfectly weighted lob by Amsyar (MJC #8) caught the VJC defense napping and Muhammad Hairi (MJC #23) calmly chested the ball down to finish off with a powerful volley, leaving Tilwa (VJC #1) grasping only air.
“In my mind, I just kept telling myself, run towards the goal and finish it,” commented Hairi, the sole goalscorer of the final.
The goal forced VJC into tactical changes with Shijudeen (VJC #14) substituted out for Shen Hao (VJC #7) at the half-hour mark. The first 40 minutes ended with VJC trailing by one goal.
Azrulnizam Shah, VJC coach, still had faith that his boys could turn things around in the second half. “I told the boys to just believe in ourselves and that we have been down a couple of times before in the tournament and emerged victorious.”
Fabio Fanticelle Da Silva, MJC coach, changed tactics during his half-time team talk.
“I instructed the wingers to come inside more to make the midfield more compact to help us win more of the first and second balls,” said coach Fabio.
However, as everyone was soon to find out, he was going to need to change his strategy even more drastically.
Within minutes of the restart, an accurate through ball from the left turned the game on its head. Ang Bing Quan (MJC #9) and Muhammad Khair (MJC #16), the two MJC central defenders who have been so dependable and unflappable all season long, uncharacteristically scuffed both of their clearances, leaving the ball bouncing behind them. The mistake did not go unnoticed by VJC skipper Dilip who closed in on the loose ball.
It was now a race between Lightfoot and Dilip to the ball. With the goalie off his line, Dilip tried to chip the ball over but Lightfoot knocked him down before he could lift the ball properly. The referee had no hesitation in flashing the red card because Lightfoot was the last player between Dilip and the goal in a definite goalscoring opportunity. Daniel certainly did not expect the red and was left speechless, leaving the pitch in tears.
Ligthfoot later commented after the match: “I thought I could get to the ball first but when I saw Dilip getting nearer I hesitated, but I decided to just bring him down thinking that I would just get a yellow card. At that moment, I just wanted to defend my clean sheet at all cost but after I was sent off, I was really worried for my teammates.”
With their first choice goalkeeper missing and their second choice, Muahmmad Deen Haqim, not feeling well, as coach Fabio confirmed after the match, it was definitely a nerve-wracking situation.
Said Muhammad Khair (MJC #16): “We were definitely feeling nervous as we have never gone to ten men before during this whole tournament and Lightfoot has always been there for us that we almost take him for granted and when he was sent off, we knew we had to change our game plan.”
But as they say, ‘Cometh the hour, cometh the man’. Amsyar, despite not having any previous training as a goalkeeper, volunteered to take the position between the sticks. Following the shock dismissal, MJC skipper, Muhammad Naufal (MJC #25), quickly gathered his team around to have a quick team talk.
“We know that by playing 10 against 11, we would have a very small chance of attacking so I told the guys we had to change our tactics and we have to tighten up defensively,” said Naufal.
However, even with 10 men, MJC held on even as VJC were devoid of ideas in trying to break down the wall of blue. As time wound down, the match entered a final act of high drama when VJC had a goal controversially disallowed by the linesman.
Anuruddhan’s overhead kick beat Amsyar in goal but the ball hit the crossbar, bouncing back before Santosh Magar (VJC #11) who tapped it into an empty goal. The VJC supporters erupted in celebration but the cheers died in their throats when they realised the linesman’s flag was up and the referee raised his hand and blew to disallow the goal.
Said an emotional Santosh: “When I scored, the first thing I did was to look at the linesman. I felt that I was onside as I remembered running at the same time as the two MJC defenders closed in on Anuruddhan (VJC #15). But I fully respect the referee’s decision and I know that in order to win you have to lose some. Despite the loss, I know I have 19 friends who supported me all the way and I would like to thank them for their support and guidance.”
VJC struggled to translate their numerical advantage into goalscoring opportunities with Amsyar only needing to make one save in his time between the posts.
Dilip admitted after the match: “We were too eager, too desperate later on in the game. The build-up play was not as good as it should be. In the end of the day, we only have ourselves to blame as we panicked and got too excited.”
Both coaches had nothing but praise for the effort their charges put in. VJC coach Azrulnizam reflected after the game: “We definitely gave our all but the little things just did not fall our way and I have played and coached enough finals to know that today’s just not our day but credit to MJC for their effort.”
Fabio was understandably proud of his team’s performance.
“To me every one of them out there is a man of the match as the boys really worked hard for each other out there in the second half and I am really thankful to Amsyar for stepping up to play as goalkeeper. Whenever you lose a key player like your goalkeeper in a match like this, it would definitely make us nervous but we did well to maintain our composure working hard for each other all the way through.”
“This is by far the most exciting final in my seven years,” added Fabio.
Match Statistics
MJC 1 VJC 0
Scorers: Muhammad Hairi (MJC #23)
Man of the Match: Muhammad Amsyar (MJC #8)
Golden Boot: Muhammad Amsyar (MJC #8) with 12 goals
==============================================================
the above is taken from here.

one day the soccer finals is not mj vs vj, i think i will just be stunned.

2011-05-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

为地球某个角落的他默哀一分钟，一路走好！
希望他周围的人都会好好的。
珂留、

2011-05-11T09:12:00.001+08:00

==============================================================
11 May 2011
Dear Prospective Science Student,
Re: A Gentle Reminder on the Invitation to the Faculty of Science Open House at NUS
Congratulations to you again on gaining admission into NUS Faculty of Science! We understand that you may have received our welcome letter, which is found in your offer package, by now.
We would like to remind you of our invitation to you and your parents to our Faculty of Science Open House next Saturday. We have lined up a series of academic talks and engaging activities for you. Through this event, you could learn more about our exciting and innovative programmes, and interact with our professors and departmental advisors who will be happy to share with you their passion for science and help review your study interests and options together with you. Details of our Open House are as follows:
Date : Sat, 21 May 2011
Time : 9:00 am
Venue : Foyer of LT27, Faculty of Science, NUS
We hope to see you then! Please RSVP your attendance for the event by 18 May 2011 via the following website https://neon.science.nus.edu.sg/intranet/public/openhouse/index.html
We will send you more details on the Faculty of Science Open House via email nearer to the event date. If you have further enquiries, please call us at Tel: 6516 8471.
Yours sincerely,
Koh Wei Kee (Ms)
Manager (Undergraduate Programmes)
Science Dean's Office
==============================================================
any science ppl here?
go with me ley..

please?

2011-05-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

hah.
funny how i agree with the following..
==============================================================
New rules the PAP may introduce in GE 2016
The PAP may have won the election, but its percentage of votes has dropped to 60.14 percent, its lowest since independence. With the ’scare’ it received, it is likely to introduce new rules in the next election to retain and perpetuate its political hegemony.
Here’s what it may do:
1. Hotly contested GRCs will be dismantled. Rampant gerry-mandering is expected in East Coast, Tampines and Moulmein-Kallang GRCs where the PAP won by less than 60 percent of the valid votes.
2. The size of the election rallies will be limited to available seats in the allocated stadiums only. Standing in the field will not be allowed due to ’security’ reasons.
3. The election deposit will be increased to more than $30,000. Candidates standing for election must pay for the deposit out of their own pockets. It will be against the law to solicit for public donations to pay for the election deposit.
4. The “Cooling off” period will be extended to a week to give more time for Singaporeans to make an ‘informed’ choice. While the opposition parties are kept quiet during this period of time, the mainstream media will be allowed to report on ‘election’ news.
5. Compulsory political education will be introduced in primary schools, as mooted earlier by Law Minister Shanmugam to ‘teach’ Singapore children the various political systems and the only one suitable in the Singapore context – a dominant ruling party to provide a ’strong and effective’ government needed for Singapore’s survival.
6. Increase the intake of foreigners and fast convert them into Singapore PRs and citizens. PRs who resided in Singapore for five years or more are given the right to vote.
With the floodgates expected to re-open again, the continued relentless influx of immigrants is likely to dilute the votes of native Singaporeans in the next election as the PAP seeks to remain in office forever.

Jermaine Chia

Posted by Contributions on May 8, 2011.
==============================================================
the above is taken from here.

hahah.
Yam Ah Mee >.<

2011-05-07T09:43:00.002+08:00

为什么他就是不明白？
不是我不想她，而是我不认同他的做法。
全世界最了解我的她离开了，难道我的悲伤会比他少？
他真的不理解，不理解当我听到那三个字的痛苦。
去看装着她骨灰的盒子，实在是一点用处都没有。
为什么一直要花钱，去烧那些无谓的纸？
我真的不明白，这样做，对她的思念并没有因此而减少，那何必做呢？

2011-05-07T09:10:00.001+08:00

我真的要翻白眼了。。
现在根本没有听广播，只有在爸的车上才会听那仅仅的几分钟。
然后，就送戏票了。
那部电影，我没听过。
我和我爸说：“老爸，你相不相信，只要是我不想看的电影，那个主持人总是会把票送给我？我想看的电影，给我的机率就会低好多。”
爸质疑。
于是，我真的传简讯了。
结果，乌鸦嘴，我的话成真了。
can someone tell me what movie did i just won?

2011-05-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

母亲节－原来。
还以为，痛，已免疫。
还以为，泪，已流干。
还以为，心，已平静。
原来，我还是会痛的。
原来，我还是会流泪的。
原来，我的心始终还是没有平静。
原来，我看到那三个字，还是会有反应的。
原来，我还是那么的幼稚，幼稚到躲在家里，不敢出门，只为了逃避那三个字。
原来，不管我怎么逃避，我还是会悲伤的。
原来，我还是会想念她的。
原来，我还是会担心她是否过过得好不好。
原来，我还是在渴望她的拥抱。
原来，我还只是个小孩。
原来，我的伪装是那么的不堪一击。
原来，我的眼泪不是流干了，而是一直被我强逼着出不来而已。
原来，流泪是会痛的。
原来，少了你在身旁，无论我有多大的成就，那都是不值得一提的。
原来，我还是一直在原地踏步。
原来，这一年多来，什么都没有变。
原来，我还是没有我想象中的成熟。
原来，我还是会累的。
原来，我。
原来，我真的好想你。

2011-05-04T09:42:00.001+08:00

okay i seriously think i'm useless now.
8 tuition agencies and yet, i still have no job?!
wth.

eh, just ignore me, i'm spamming all my tuzki..

2011-04-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

argh.
seriously irritated now.
so irritated until want to scream le.
zzz..
today's just not my day.

first, my ez-link card expire today.
inside got $20.50.
checked the website and saw burger king accept ez-link for payment.
no choice, went to eat.
and great, when i tap my card, it says card expired.
wow, how great, i still purposely like order more ex stuff in order to finish the money inside.
oh well, paid by cash, no choice.
then there's no place for me.
a very usual problem with eating alone.
no one to help you occupy seats.
stood there like an idiot for like a while.
until three kind hearted ppl finally gave me one seat.

second, there's like ppl everywhere today.
where does all the ppl come from?
noisy.
and to add to the noise level, the opp party ppl wearing orange which is very attention grabbing, shouting at all of us to vote for them.
great.
even more noisy.
i guess i won't be that irritated if i can vote.
okay forget the unable to vote part.
but must you rly shout at us?
zzz..

third, the ticket office de queue was damn long.
i wonder what're the machines for when everyone queuing at the ticket office to top up their cards.
then great, the person say cannot transfer the money to another card, but oh well, not like i expected to.
hmm, direct refund.
but they have to keep my card.
oh well, $20.50.
refund then.

but now i'm super regretting it now.
T.T
i rather keep my one and only student pass than take back my $20.50.
irritated with myself, i walk back home.

not knowing that i'm leaving a trail all the way until i reached my block.
oh well, my water bottle seems to choose a great time to make matters worse for me.
three quarters of the water gone, gone in my bag and on the roads.
wow, what a great way to realise that my bag is kind of waterproof.
my bag is like equal to a bucket of water.
=.=

呼，发泄完毕。
can i cry now?
feel a desperate need to cry.
zzz..
moral of the story, small matters make up big matter.

2011-04-28T18:20:00.000+08:00

lalalala~
say byebye to ntu and hello to nus.
nus, here i come!

2011-04-22T14:00:00.003+08:00

2011-04-21T14:50:00.001+08:00

==============================================================
DEAR LIM WEI KE,
Congratulations for receiving the offer letter from NTU!
You are cordially invited to MAS welcome tea party
Date: 14 May 2011
Time: 10.00am
Venue: LT1, SPMS

Please RSVP for this event by 3 May 2011.
==============================================================

should i go?

2011-04-18T20:13:00.003+08:00

这是我这近四、五个月以来，说的最多话的两小时。
okay, it's less than 2 hours.
was supposed to be 4.30pm to 6.30pm.
but 6pm his mother ask me to stop, say he tired liao.
i was >.<.
then my pay considered what sia?
2 hours? or 1.5 hours?

tot finally can say my job's like somehow secured liao after one hour plus.
then when i going home that time, his mother threw a bomb at me.
cries.
"i will inform you whether he wants to continue or not..coz his friend wanted to teach him..so later i ask him whether he prefers you or his friend.."
i totally sian sia.
which normal person will choose a stranger over a friend?
his mother's thinking seriously @£$%& sia.

sighs.
b4 going there, i've already been worrying that first lesson whether will kena rejected anot.
and i tot the start went well.
his mother was rather impressed by my result? when she saw my cert.
she still ask me why i don't want teach chem.

hmm..
though i admit the lesson was rather boring.
went thru differentiation of logarithms.
and that guy was kind of distracted sia.
keep checking his phone.
somemore is iphone..
and i wonder what's he doing in class.
basic differentiation also must think so long.
okay maybe my std too high.
but oh well.
i think we got communication problem.
he cannot understand what i saying; i cannot understand what he saying.
great, this is the so called age gap?!

if this job is gone, i wonder when's my next one.
sighs.

==============================================================
20.04.2011 Randy 11:19AM
Hi my teacher will b giving free lessons for the weaker students so i wont require your services thank you
==============================================================
cries.
though i somehow expected it, but when it become reality, it still hurts.

2011-04-13T16:42:00.008+08:00

姷榯鍭，郗朢樾汏，怣朢僦樾迏⋯⋯

2011-04-11T07:52:00.003+08:00

today.
11th april.
雷's birthday.

4 years old.
equals to human de 29 years old.
old 雷..
haha.

anyways, he at my house 2 years liao.
lalalala~~~

2011-03-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

爱情PH值测试：你是哪种情人？

［中酸性情人］：人妻情人
《妳的性格诊断书》

妳其实是一个敏感且富于同理心的「人妻」型女性。无论外表给人的感觉如何，妳其实很体贴、很温和，即便天性直率，也相当厚道。妳像是一瓶后劲十足的好酒，刚开始不觉得有甚么特别，可是会越陈越香，适合有耐心且懂得品味的人来欣赏。妳唯一难搞的地方是固执，自己坚信的事情，妳很难让步，很多人以为妳好相处，其实妳有不肯妥协的地方。正义感十足且拥有包容力的妳，在人生的道路上，当心变成他人私心下的牺牲品。尽管懂得进退与给对方空间，但是别忘了保护自己。

《中酸性爱情分析》

妳的贤慧与贴心，是一种隐性特质，表面上妳独立且喜欢主导，不过骨子里对于爱情的配合与容忍度却很强，因此再艰辛的爱情妳都能继续走下去。除非对方主动放弃，妳不会轻言分手。妳的忠诚度与其他女性相比，也算是比较高的，感性且敏感的妳，其实很需要爱情的肯定，爱情的温度，更是生命中不可或缺的幸福。正因为如此，才华洋溢、任性自我以及异性缘好的对象，绝对不会是妳的真命天子，因为妳的自尊心受不了他人自私的折磨。平淡的爱情，才是妳的最大福报。通常妳的爱情运会有如倒吃甘蔗般，属于越晚越好的类型。

《魅力诊疗室》

妳的特质是，无论多么优秀强势，只要一谈恋爱就会变笨。学着在爱情的世界里多为自己盘算，会比较快乐。在装扮上，换些时尚些的装扮，或是尝试一些平日没考虑过的穿着，也能让人惊艷。

2011-03-19T16:44:00.001+08:00

学会了冷血，只对我好的人好。
学会了绝情，该留就留，该走就走。
学会了残忍，该抹杀的就必须抹杀。
学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着面对。
学会孤独，没有谁会把我当宝护着，世界总是孤单的。
学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，自己笑给自己看，自己哭给自己听。
学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。
学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。
学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。
学会满足，知足者常乐。
学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做，求人不如求己。
学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气。
学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。
学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。
学会忘记，不能活在过去的时光中，记忆已经逝去，继续现在的生活。
学会放弃，有些人永远不属于自己，那么就痛快的放手，别拖泥带水，这样不但连累别人，也累垮自己。

慢慢才知道，太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。
慢慢才知道，对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。
慢慢才知道，一个人要自己对自己好，因为真正关心你的人很少，有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。
慢慢才知道，真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。
慢慢才知道，很多东西是可遇而不可求的，很多东西只能拥有一次。
慢慢才知道，恋爱不一定是真心的，有可能是利益关系，有可能是攀比心理。
慢慢才知道，不要和别人争论什么，因为那是没有结果的，无论谁对谁错。
慢慢才知道，很多时候自己遇到不开心事，千万不要渴望别人同情，大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。
慢慢才知道，有很多东西是不属于你的，你使劲强求会遭天遣的。
慢慢才知道，未必做每件事情都有意义，可是做的每件事情都觉得是一件回忆！
慢慢才知道，人的性格可以差异到如此之大。
慢慢才知道，许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出，但请留住回忆。
慢慢才知道，从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人，放弃你留不住的人，不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。
慢慢才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，但你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。
慢慢才知道，不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气，渴望他们谅解你，人家不是你的父母，现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。
慢慢才知道，即便有人对情感看的无所谓，你一定要坚信，人之间的感情，有可能会令所有东西都无法超越的，但记住，只是有可能慢慢才知道，原来现实如此的无奈。
慢慢才知道，会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱咋整随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。
慢慢才知道，两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什么都不是。
慢慢才知道，会遇到很多诱惑，无论别人怎么样，你是你，你有你的原则和底限。
慢慢才知道，会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去，但是他爱怎么样就怎么样，我们要大度，不和小人计较，但前提是你正确。
慢慢才知道，很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系，在一起就一定是恋人，不是恋人就一定不能在一起。
慢慢才知道，学习要刻苦，因为凭聪明就能应付考试科目的人是凤毛翎角。
慢慢才知道，原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊，丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。
慢慢才知道，手机是别人有事找你的时候用的，并不是为了交流感情的。
慢慢才知道，可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不能把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。
慢慢才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千万别玩，不然会输了什么都没有的。
慢慢才知道，快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。
慢慢才知道，那些嘻哈打闹只是消遣而已，而过往的抽烟打架更是无知。
慢慢才知道，有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什么，千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那样会让自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊，自己又不是占卜师。
慢慢才知道，不要把自己想的有多高，没有绝对性的胜利，也没有绝对性的失败。
慢慢才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。
慢慢才知道，兄弟情义有时候未必是想像的那么美好，只有自己真心付出，才有可能得到别人的真心对待。
慢慢才知道，有的人不断的算计，到头还来是会输的很惨，所以应当保持一个平和的心！
慢慢才知道，有的事情不是自己所愿意的，但是有的事情必须得去完成，那也是对自己的一段特训。
慢慢才知道，原来两个人在一起或真或假，相处的时间还是占据着重要成份。
慢慢才知道，现实根想法的差距，必须要随机应变，跟上生活的步伐！
慢慢才知道，自己也在慢慢长大，不再是小孩子了，适应着每一件事的成长。
慢慢才知道，不要把自己想的有多高，没有绝对性的胜利，也没有绝对性的失败。
慢慢才知道，给人留一线日后好相见的真正意义，没有永远的敌人只有永远的朋友，凡事不要做的太绝，事情的结局都是用嘴巴说出来的。
慢慢才知道，不管玩的多好的朋友都有可能失去，但是我们还是要乐观面对，若是真的把他(她)当作自己的朋友就应该为他(她)祝福。遥望！只是做自己所做的。
慢慢才知道，自己在慢慢接受社会了，所以也要慢慢学会适应。
慢慢才知道，自已长大了。
慢慢才知道，该知道的知道的太迟。
慢慢才知道，只有借鉴书本和别人的经验教训才会走在别人前面。

2011-03-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

celebrate!
lalala~
finally switch from cable modem to wireless le.
no need to sit at the same place anymore.
hehe.
:P

2011-03-04T21:03:00.006+08:00

hehe.
the previous ones are in the com.
so i 顺便 join tgt.
overall improved?!

eh and put the points system here also.
coz i keep forgetting how to calculate.
i'm like confused over the whole thing?

and ya i know..
i very extreme.
can't help it.
zzz..
everything put tgt equals to very average.

78.75 points out of 90.
sighs.
oh well..
shall say sth that everyone's saying.
at least i did my best.
ha.
but still no face to see our dear form teacher.
我对不起你呀。
dear econs..

[edit]
sighs.
the more i look at this, the more headache i get.

==============================================================
INDICATIVE GRADE PROFILES FOR NIE/NTU/NUS/SMU FOR AY2011/2012 ADMISSIONS EXERCISE

2011 UAS / IGP / University / Course / (2010 UAS IGP) (2009 UAS IGP)

87.50 AAA/A NUS Medicine* (87.50 AAA/A) (87.50 AAA/A)
87.50 AAA/A NUS Law* (87.50 AAA/A) (87.50 AAA/A)
87.50 AAA/A NUS Dentistry* (87.50 AAA/A) (87.50 AAA/A)

Refer to section under [Law, Medicine, Dentistry] for explanation on 87.50.

85.00 AAA/A SMU Law (85.00 AAA/A) (83.75 AAA/B)
85.00 AAA/A NUS Pharmacy (85.00 AAA/A) (83.75 AAA/B)
85.00 AAA/A NUS Business Admin (Accountancy) (83.75 AAA/B) (83.75 AAA/B)
85.00 AAA/A NTU Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering (83.75 AAA/B) (80.00 ABB/A)

83.75 AAA/B NUS Industrial & Systems Engineering (85.00 AAA/A) (85.00 AAA/A)
83.75 AAA/B NUS Chemical Engineering (85.00 AAA/A) (85.00 AAA/A)
83.75 AAA/B NUS Business Admin (82.50 AAA/C) (81.25 AAB/B)
83.75 AAA/B NTU Aerospace Engineering (83.75 AAA/B) (83.75 AAA/B)

82.50 AAB/A NTU Maritime Studies (80.00 ABB/A) (78.75 ABB/B)
82.50 AAB/A NTU Accountancy* (83.75 AAA/B) (81.25 AAB/B)
82.50 AAA/C NUS Environment Engineering (85.00 AAA/A) (85.00 AAA/A)

81.25 AAB/B SMU Economics (77.50 ABB/C) (76.25 BBB/B)
81.25 AAB/B SMU Accountancy (81.25 AAB/B) (80.00 ABB/A)
81.25 AAB/B NTU Environmental Engineering (78.75 ABB/B) (78.75 ABB/B)
81.25 AAB/B NTU Business* (83.75 AAA/B) (81.25 AAB/B)

78.75 ABB/B NUS Science (78.75 ABB/B) (76.25 BBB/B)
78.75 ABB/B NUS Computing (Computer Science) (76.25 BBB/B) (71.25 BCC/B)
78.75 ABB/B NUS Bioengineering (80.00 AAB/C) (80.00 ABB/A)
78.75 ABB/B NUS Arts & Social Sciences (77.50 ABB/C) (72.50 BBC/C)
78.75 ABB/B NTU Mathematics & Economics (78.75 ABB/B) (78.75 ABB/B)
78.75 ABB/B NTU Communication Studies* (78.75 ABB/B) (75.00 BBB/C)
78.75 ABB/B NTU Chemistry & Biological Chemistry (76.25 BBB/B) (75.00 BBB/C)

77.50 ABB/C SMU Business Management (77.50 ABB/C) (78.75 ABB/B)
77.50 ABB/C NUS Materials Science & Engineering (82.50 AAA/C) (85.00 AAA/A)
77.50 ABB/C NUS Engineering Science (80.00 AAB/C) (77.50 BBB/A)
77.50 ABB/C NUS Computing (Information Systems) (76.25 BBB/B) (71.25 BCC/B)

76.25 BBB/B SMU Social Sciences (73.75 BBC/B) (73.75 BBC/B)
76.25 BBB/B NTU Psychology (75.00 BBC/A) (76.25 BBB/B)
76.25 BBB/B NUS Real Estate (75.00 BBB/C) (73.75 BBC/B)
76.25 BBB/B NUS Computer Engineering (75.00 BBB/C)
76.25 BBB/B NUS Architecture* (75.00 BBB/C) (70.00 BCC/C)
76.25 BBB/B NTU Mathematical Sciences (76.25 BBB/B) (76.25 BBB/B)
76.25 BBB/B NTU Biological Sciences* (73.75 BBC/B) (72.50 BBC/C)

75.00 BBC/A NTU Sport Science & Management (80.00 AAB/C)
75.00 BBC/A NTU Bioengineering (75.00 BBC/A) (73.75 BBC/B)
75.00 BBB/C NTU Sociology* (68.75 CCC/B) (71.25 BCC/B)
75.00 BBB/C NUS Project & Facilities Management (76.25 BBB/B) (72.50 BBC/C)
75.00 BBB/C NUS Mechanical Engineering (78.75 ABB/B) (77.50 BBB/A)
75.00 BBB/C NUS Electrical Engineering (75.00 BBB/C) (75.00 BBB/C)
75.00 BBB/C NUS Civil Engineering (76.25 BBB/B) (72.50 BBC/C)
75.00 BBB/C NUS Arts & Social Sciences (MT related) (75.00 BBB/C)
75.00 BBB/C NTU Physics / Applied Physics (75.00 BBB/C) (68.75 CCC/B)
75.00 BBB/C NTU Economics* (76.25 BBB/B) (78.75 ABB/B)

73.75 BBC/B NUS Industrial Design* (70.00 BCC/C) (68.75 CCC/B)
73.75 BBC/B NUS Engineering (78.75 ABB/B) (77.50 BBB/A)
73.75 BBC/B NTU Materials Engineering (72.50 BBC/C) (71.25 BCC/B)
73.75 BBC/B NTU Information Engineering & Media (72.50 BBC/C) (75.00 BBB/C)

72.50 BBC/C NTU Computer Science (72.50 BBC/C) (70.00 BCC/C)
72.50 BBC/C NTU Computer Engineering (73.75 BBC/B) (70.00 BCC/C)
72.50 BBC/C NIE Science (Education) (67.50 CCC/C) (67.50 CCC/C)
72.50 BBC/C NIE Arts (Education) (67.50 CCC/C) (67.50 CCC/C)
72.50 BBC/C NTU Linguistics & Multilingual Studies* (70.00 BCC/C) (70.00 BCC/C)

71.25 BCC/B NUS Nursing* (68.75 CCC/B) (62.50 CDD/C)
71.25 BCC/B NTU Mechanical Engineering (71.25 BCC/B) (70.00 BCC/C)
71.25 BCC/B NTU Engineering (71.25 BCC/B) (68.75 CCC/D)
71.25 BCC/B NTU Electrical & Electronic Engineering (70.00 BCC/C) (70.00 BCC/C)
71.25 BCC/B NTU Civil Engineering (70.00 BCC/C) (67.50 CCC/C)
71.25 BCC/B NTU Chinese (67.50 CCC/C) (67.50 CCC/C)
71.25 BCC/B NTU English* (70.00 BCC/C) (67.50 CCC/C)

70.00 BCC/C SMU Information Systems Management (70.00 BCC/C) (71.25 BCC/B)

62.50 CDD/C NTU Art, Design & Media* (62.50 CDD/C) (58.75 DDD/D)

* Courses that require interview /or test.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Compare your UAS to the cut-offs of the courses you're interested in.

If your UAS is well above (2.5 difference or higher), you're safe, and ought to get in.

If your UAS is 1.25 lower, equal, or 1.25 higher, to the course in question, you are pretty much on the borderline. Hence, depending on the competitiveness of the cohort applying this year, you may or may not obtain entry.

If your UAS falls short (2.5 difference or higher), you most likely will not obtain entry with pure grades alone. You should consider applying through Discretionary Admissions.
==============================================================

78.75..
cries, i really don't want go ntu.
from now onwards, i shall start praying for a miracle.
please, please let me get in.
just squeeze me into nus de fos..
[/edit]

2011-02-28T16:22:00.003+08:00

omg.
this is seriously accurate.

双鱼的女孩不是傻，而是因为心里明白太聪明太锋芒毕露只会招来嫉妒，于是就用装傻，傻得没心没肺，来当作心灵的保护罩。因为坚信“真相都是残酷的，与其太过明白一切，不如傻傻的来得幸福。”所以双鱼的女孩会巧妙的掩饰自己的智慧。但她们傻笑的同时，却将你的一举一动尽收眼底，连你心里想什么她都知道，她不说只是代表没必要揭你老底，她也不想惹麻烦。这是一种大智若愚。
她对你说出一大堆天真的幻想，只是为了让你对她没戒心；她迷迷糊糊，不代表真的不黯世事，而是寻求保护，适当的显露出柔弱才能激起你的保护欲。
双鱼座并不真的相信占卜，只是在寻求不到解答时，要找各种途径去研究策略，她们需要占卜，但并不代表绝对依赖占卜。那只是给自己提示的途径罢了。
双鱼女对追求她的人，以及身边出现的异性都保持一种暧昧态度，那只是因为她尚未真正找到值得自己爱的人，但一旦找到真心所爱的人，就没有人能让她移情别恋了——除非出现条件更好、更爱她的人，不排除她会重新考虑，但也不一定就会变心。如果她还没有爱上谁，那么所有的异性——只要符合她的标准——都有机会，但若是她已经有了非常在乎非常认定的人，那么其他人的追求对她来说都是麻烦，她虽然会保持耐心去应付，但绝对不会给对方机会，甚至把她逼急了还会干脆拒绝掉。
别以为双鱼女柔弱，其实她很有自己的原则，并且是那种平时可以玩世不恭可以没心没肺可以傻气幼稚，但关键时刻却会是最冷静最核心的人物。当有人为她撑腰时，她会是最较弱最需要保护的那个，但没有人撑腰时，她就是做出决断下达指令的人。
她很会察言观色，虽然有时她并不会利用这一点去处事，但一切都要看形势需要。
可以说她的傻气是装出来的，可爱却不一定是装出来的；柔弱是装出来的，易被感动却不是装出来的；耐心是她很努力去维持的，但并不代表她就容许别人放肆。

她可以最不记仇，但把她逼到忍无可忍不能再忍的时候，你就等着死吧。最好的情况是她警告一次就不会有什么举动，最糟糕的情况就是——暗暗的发动你周遭一切可以发动的人对你进行最猛烈的攻击，让你瞬间失去一切，还会主动来向她道歉~~并且事后都不会知道你究竟怎么死的。
所以没事别去惹双鱼座，不然老天爷都不会放过你，何况她。

双鱼座的双重性格非常极端，可以最火热，也可以最冰冷，但平常会呈现出很中间很和蔼的性格，可以迷惑你，虽然她们基本上不太会留意到自己的影响力。
很多解析都说双鱼多么浪漫多么不切实际。我要说的是，浪漫是真，不切实际却不一定。
只要条件需要她脚踏实地，她就会比任何人都现实，并且还会突然开始制定计划并且一步步照做。这种转变是惊人的，原因是她已经找到了认定的目标。虽然计划总是在不断修改，但她下定决心的事她就会疯狂的做，并且很用心。但有的时候他们并不需要花费很多力气就可以做得比别人好，但为了向别人表现自己真的很努力，还要装出点用功认真的样子。而真正努力的时候，她们却会调皮的装出吊儿郎当的样子。
他们很会演戏，只是很多时候她们并不是刻意的在演。演只是一种本能。而作用和效果也随情况转变。
但有时候她们是故意那样做的，并且你往往看不出来，还会以为她们是真的傻傻的，真的乐天派，或是真的很脆弱很易被伤害，或是真的那么胆小。
她们常常让你产生错觉，觉得自己最了解她们，自己很容易可以控制她们，其实不然，想出一段时间，你就会发现真是大错特错。她有太多的面，她的性格时刻在变，并且是随着时间地点人物心情来变，甚至传的一套衣服染的一种发色都能瞬间改变她们的性格，你永远也看不透看不完。她的想法如此天马行空，她可以很听话很唯命是从，也可以猛然的很个性很坚持己见很独立，你永远也不能真正抓住她的心，永远也不能真正占有她。
她不断的摄取知识并且不停的思考，她留意哪怕一点点小细节。她不在意你的缺点，并且欣赏你的优点。她不一定会说出全部的想法，但当她正经起来，她会说出令你吃惊的准确的话，不过，若她假装正经的时候除外。
她从不真正单纯，觉得她太浅太透明的男人们，那是因为你太没洞察力也太没耐心、太肤浅，你没有足够的智慧和眼力去读懂真实的她，所以你也无法掌握她的心。
而那些以自我为中心、不肯照顾女人的男人，更加没可能得到双鱼女长久的爱，她就算一开始爱得你死去活来，那也只是她给自己编织的一场梦，她很快就会醒来，会清醒地从现实的细节里看穿你，无论你如何掩饰，她很有可能会离开你，别以为她天性喜爱依赖，让你做主只是因为她怕麻烦，其实她很独立，只要需要，她丝毫不会留恋不值得她爱的人。
所以爱她就要让自己不肤浅，要学会欣赏她，要去解读她，也要学会体贴她——她会留意细节，虽然她不一定会抱怨男友的粗心和不解风情，但别以为你的疏忽不被察觉，那是不可能的。时间久了，次数多了，她也会在沉默中爆发，那时，可别怪她冷酷决绝，只因为你太不懂情趣。
当然，只会说甜言蜜语却没行动和付出的男人，她也会离开的。
想要得到她，就展开追求攻势吧。她不欣赏婆婆妈妈没胆量的男人。
但是她也不会喜欢被她明确拒绝了多次却死缠烂打的男人。
她的要求不会很高，只要你长得还对得起观众，并且干净舒服，有点品位，又有上进心和行动力，有耐心又体贴，不花心，并且很主动又照顾周到，不怕为了浪漫砸时间砸金子（即使你没钱，也至少要体贴），她就会很快对你动情。
只要你讲理，她就不会无理取闹。但宠她宠过头了，那就有各种可能性了。
玫瑰鲜花巧克力纪念日绝对不能忘，还要给她生日的惊喜，最好你献殷勤不用她提醒你，你在她面前会很成熟可靠，又能适当的撒撒娇，又能在同事朋友面前独当一面，她就会崇拜你，甚至还会用她的方式宠你。

2011-02-28T07:58:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me~
lalalala..

open my email just now.
samsung wrote the following to me..
Enjoy 20% off* on selected products at the Samsung Flagship Store @ VivoCity during your birthday month and get to celebrate in true Samsung style. Just print this e-mailer, bring it along with your IC (or passport) and present it when making payment for your new Samsung purchases.

don't everyone think this very unfair to me?
today's the last day of feb.
zzz..
okay this is just a random post.
anyways, don't think anyone is here la.
hah.

2011-02-24T22:29:00.007+08:00

finally.
after two years..
终于脱离苦海了。
hehe.
i so happy sia.
lalalala~

say byebye to lg kc910 [renoir] and welcome to nokia x5~~~
hehe.

2011-02-22T20:37:00.002+08:00

随着下个星期五的脚步越来越接近，我就越来越不安。
也开始为我的前途迷惘起来。
我⋯能做什么？
这不是儿戏，这可是会影响我往后的人生的⋯⋯
我还是是不知所措。
不止一个人说，你就当老师吧。
我⋯真的能胜任老师这个行业吗？
老师，对我而言，是个很神圣的工作。
老师的好与坏是会影响每个学生的。
我有那个把握，不会成为那人人口中的误人子弟的老师吗？
想到自己成为老师，就开始害怕起来。
我很清楚自己的为人。
我不轻易很陌生人打成一片，这样的我真的能成为老师吗？
不知道、不知道、很多的不知道。
N年后，或许我真的会成为老师。
但现在的我，还是非常迷惘⋯⋯
现在感到很可惜⋯⋯
可惜自己不像直树一样，是个天才，什么都能做。
可惜自己没有一个湘琴在适当的时候来帮忙指点道路。
可惜自己还是无法自信起来。
我想，如果我真的考不上大学，我应该会崩溃。
我知道大家会告诉我，那不是世界末日。
可是，大家不知道的是⋯⋯
那时候会对我来说，这世界上就真的再也没有什么我好留恋的。
⋯⋯

eh before i end this post, i shall apologise to dear zuoer.
so sorry.
typing chinese is so natural to me now that i totally didn't think of typing english just now.
and typing english is seriously awkward now.
so..
i shall continue typing my chinese.
heh :P

2011-02-19T07:13:00.003+08:00

再也没有人，当我做恶梦了，抱着我说没事。
再也没有人，陪生病的我去看医生。
再也没有人，管我的死活。
就算我哭得天荒地老，还是没有人来安慰我。
厌倦了。
有时候，真希望就一直这样睡下去，永远不醒来。
我累了。
伪装坚强的我，在一场恶梦之后，坚强全部瓦解了。
恶梦并不可怕，可怕的是醒来后，就算哭到死去活来，还是没有人来安慰你。。。
我不想再假装没事了。
我不想在想妈妈的时候，还要故意硬把我脑袋装下其他东西。
我不想再过这种生活了。
我想这样一直哭下去。

朋友的关心弥补不了失去妈妈的空缺。
怎么弥补也弥补不了的。
容许我任性一次，就让我一直哭下去吧。
除了哭，我什么也不想做了。。。

2011-02-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

i finally know why i'm so depressed for being sick.
peeked at the clinic records just now.
the last time i went was oct 2009.
sighs.

hehe.
for zuoer's sake, i'm speaking english.
eh actually coz if i still don't speak, i will seriously forget how to.
>.<
if don't have here, i don't think i will even speak a single sentence.
lalala~
i'm speaking more teochew than english.

sorry if this doesn't make sense to you.
you try not typing english for n months/type chinese for n months everyday.
then you will understand why.

2011-02-14T07:50:00.003+08:00

the 14th.
valentine's day.
alone at home.
sick.
lack of sleep -- due to sick-ness.
what a great day~

i'm speaking english.
no choice but to, otherwise i will really forget how to say sia.
nowadays, i speak teochew more than english.
what drama?!
argh.
my blog totally have no one here, i believe.
eh.
okay, i really don't know what to say anymore.

from the start, i already have doubts about the entire incident.
but now i really don't care whether it's true anymore.
or even if it's just some nothing better to do people acting in front of everybody.
what i know is i really am touched by the whole thing.
even if it's just some stupid act, i can say i'm willing to be cheated now.

oh well.
i guess even if there's people reading this, i bet no one will understand what i'm saying.
eh..
hard to explain.
or actually, i'm lazy to explain.
bye.
my first english post in n days.

2011-02-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

我彻底地从MSN转移到了QQ。
我⋯无语了。
as time goes by, i'm forgetting my english bit by bit..
and i'm not regretting it.

2011-02-09T14:17:00.002+08:00

damn it.
i seriously think my ipod is 落井下石-ing.
shuffle button is on doesn't mean that it has to play all the sad songs...
argh.
and more damn it-s.
i just realised today's the 9th again.
14 months.
no wonder this morning i suddenly think of that scene again.
it just popped into my mind out of nowhere.
zzz..
one second is the difference between life and death.

2011-02-09T12:53:00.004+08:00

不知道这一切到底是不是真的
但我真的深深地被感动到了
我...哭了
几乎只能在言情小说会看到的情节竟然就这样发生在他们的身上

我不知道是不是真的
但如果是真的...
我真心祝福你
你一定要平安回来
到时候我会真心地叫你一声哥哥
我承认之前叫的都只是闹着玩的...

虽然我不清楚到底是多么严重的病
可是我坚信你们的爱情一定能感动上天的

生命就是那么地脆弱
活与死只是一线之差
唉...
我依然半信半疑这一切到底是不是真的
但内心深处还是希望是真的
多么...我无法形容

但又怕是真的你却回不来了...跟妈妈一样
曾经能和我们说话的你是否会再也回不来
像妈妈一样曾经那么亲密的人就这样走了
从此再也不理人了

天啊我继续哭好了~~~
不知道还有没有人在看呀...
算了有没有人我都无所谓我只是想发泄一下我的情绪
呜呜呜呜呜~~~~~~~
886

2011-02-02T11:38:00.002+08:00

嘿嘿珂来咯～
不知道有没有人在看呀？
没人看也没关系啦
呵呵珂要跟大家拜个年
祝大家新年快乐学业进步身体健康～
哈哈因为在恶作剧狂想吧那里祝福我的各位妹妹了不可能这里最亲爱的朋友不祝福～
好了我要飘走了～～
88

2011-01-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

haha.
i'm amused at this.
btw, i got this from jobscentral~

Results for Lim Wei Ke

At a Glance
• Works hard, puts in long hours and keeps busy with work.
• Punctual, completes work on time.
• Objective, but may appear detached.
• Quiet and reserved, prefers own company.
• Faithful, trustworthy and devoted in long-term relationships.
• Not concerned with rank, title or position.
• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.
• A good supporter of others.
• Likes intellectual discussions, likes to explore ideas.
• Orderly, methodical and systematic, takes care to plan in detail.
• Less expressive verbally.

While at Work
Diligence and discipline are characteristics of Ms Lim's work attitude. She is often pre-occupied with the tasks at hand. As she derives satisfaction from being immersed in work and thrives on being involved, expect Ms Lim to put in long and extended hours at work.

Time is a major concern for Ms Lim. She is frequently punctual and even early for appointments. When time is critical, she moves quickly and acts promptly. Having a sense of urgency means that Ms Lim pushes to get things done when there is a deadline and allocates time properly when planning or organising activities. She can be depended upon to get work done on schedule.

Ms Lim generally will persist with work until it is completed but may at times not complete her tasks.

Ms Lim is able to produce work that is moderately high in quality but she may at times be careless.

Ms Lim is an objective person who is impartial and rational. She speaks factually and often does not involve her own feelings and emotions. She may sometimes be perceived as distant or detached.

Although Ms Lim is usually a sympathetic person, she may at times be selective about being involved in the personal problems of people.

Being a shy, quiet and reserved person, Ms Lim prefers her own company and feels awkward when meeting people for the first time. In social gatherings, she tends to stay in the background.

Ms Lim is the sort of person who forms long term bonds and attachments. She is faithful, trustworthy, and devoted in such relationships. She tends to be trusting, dedicated and protective towards those she loves. Patriotism and sense of duty is a significant aspect of her character.

Ms Lim is moderately serious about her responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of her work.

Ms Lim does not care much about how people view her or whether they respect her or not. She focuses on what she wants to do for herself. She is unconcerned with issues of ranks, positions or titles. Status symbols are unimportant for her. She does not draw attention to herself and dresses moderately and simply.

Ms Lim sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. She is trusting and believes what people say. She tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. She is uncomfortable when she has to wheel and deal.

A good supporter to the people around her, Ms Lim does not desire to lead or influence people. She is uncomfortable taking charge and does not feel the thrill of challenge in leading others. She prefers to responds rather than initiate. She looks to others to provide direction and does not naturally want to persuade or motivate others to take a certain course of action.

Intellectually inquisitive and extremely interested in knowledge acquisition, Ms Lim enjoys discussing hypothetical or theoretical issues. She is conceptual and likes to explore abstract ideas. Ms Lim is a thinker, creative and inventive of ideas. She enjoys reading and is happiest sourcing for new ideas and information.

Being orderly, methodical and systematic, Ms Lim spends considerable time planning ahead and organizing activities. She ensures that programmes are scheduled properly and takes care to plan in detail. Formulating procedures and policies is her forte.

Visualization

-THE END-

hehe :P

2011-01-24T09:47:00.002+08:00

heyhey.
long time no post.
so shall find sth to post to make this more alive.
hah.
recommending this to everyone who still came here despite it being so dead.

heehee.
long time nv hear zhiyang sing le.
and i'm surprised after so long, his voice still attract me so much.
-.-
but i wonder why he must take the video of himself so close.
quite scary.
i tried to find ways to post his voice only but like cannot leh.
so everyone who find his face scary, just click on play and go to other websites.
heh.
that's what i did anyway.

嘿嘿。
想打一下中文。
因为这里太多英文了。。。到我受不了。
呵呵。
好啦。
我承认我无聊。
各位～
再见咯。

2011-01-18T15:48:00.002+08:00

question: do we still need to pay school fees while waiting for results?
anyone who know pls tell me.
i want to close that account le.
lousy moe website info so vague de.
zzz..

anyways, wanted to go swimming today but got lots of stuff to do.
my sun came back!
finally.
i miss the sun alot.
everyday rain/cloudy very sian.
let's hope tmr's weather equally good and i can go swim.
haha.

btw, i need to go to this udders ice cream shop coz got free voucher.
anyone want to go with me?
there're outlets at east coast, novena, kilat court and bukit batok de west mall.
i'm fine with any actually.
just want to spend that voucher.
coz it's expiring at 31 jan.
just go with me, please?

2011-01-13T09:57:00.002+08:00

hah..
i watched finished the twilight series de movies liao.
eh at least i caught up with what everyone's been watching.
i can't wait for breaking dawn sia.
that's like the most anticipated liao.
anyways, dno is it just me or i think 'bella' look a bit like 'hermonine'?
hahah..
maybe it's the thingy in me again.
the all angmohs/korean look the same thingy.
=.=

okay on second thoughts, i think emma watson prettier.
haha.

anyways, was irritated with a guy ytd night.
i signed up at the tuitionportal.sg as a tutor like long ago.
ytd this guy called me and asked me to teach p1 eng and maths.
i declined to teach eng.
he immediately asked me you from china?
i was like no, i'm singaporean.
then he asked me why cannot eng?
i was saying i try my best not to teach eng coz i'm not confident in it.
he started asking me my o level eng grade.
i was err..a2.
he say what? b2?
okay this totally revealed that he himself is not familiar with the system at all.
zzz..
he say why you can get a2 and not teach p1 eng.
i was like hello? pri sch is like so far away for me.
okay i didn't say that to him, i was thinking that.
then he started complaining about my expected pay -- $25 per hour.
i told him i'm actually okay with any pay, just that $25 per hour is my previous pay.
he still continue to complain.
i start to wth liao.
anyways, he just ended the call abruptly, saying you cannot.
i think that means i'm so called 'fired'?!
wth.
why can't i choose subjects that i'm more confident in?
isn't that like supposedly better for the students?
zzz..

okay i go read my stories liao.
bye.

2011-01-11T10:50:00.003+08:00

ahahah..
i finished the twilight series in less than a week~
wah..
seriously, after reading 4 very thick chinese books and countless chinese stories online, speaking english is damn weird now.
hehe.
but i'm still happy.
i'm nv going to touch english again.
lalala~
okay i know this is so 矛盾.
typing english and saying not going to touch english again.
oh well.
it's still easier to type english than chinese.
=.= at myself.
bye english~

2011-01-05T11:08:00.002+08:00

请谅解我的虚荣心~
可恶的百度说 '抱歉，您注册时间不足，目前不能使用签名档'.
好不容易才弄好的签名档竟然还要等多两个月才能派上用场.
实在是太可恶了.
所以我打这里的主意.
呵呵.
我的签名档不错吧..

okay revert back to english.
haha.
not used to typing chinese here.
only used to it at 百度.
ha.
i'm quite popular there ley.
even me myself also can't imagine..

anyways, i'm very happy now.
haha.
coz i finally finished twilight.
shall continue on new moon.
hehe.
能看书让我很满足~

okay end of post.
i only post to show off my 签名档.
hahah.
meimei disappointed anot?

2011-01-03T13:35:00.002+08:00

phew.
for the first time in n months, i'm glad to be home.
stupid weather.
i was complaining why is it so hot today when i go out for lunch.
and guess what..
it was raining so heavily when i came out of the food court.
zzz..
decided not to hide at the library anymore.
went to buy an umbrella.
don't say me waste money ah.
my umbrella-s anyways spoil le.

went home first thing is to find my toilet and bathroom flooded until my kitchen.
zzz even more.
i don't have the habit of closing the windows there.
coz the windows there before renovation was those rigid kind which cannot be closed.
i'm glad that they can be closed now.
the rain is seriously heavy.

anyways, i'm very happy since ytd.
coz i finally managed to borrow 'twilight'!
after like n trips to the library.
haha.
it's the chinese version though.
but i very happy alrdy.
better than nth.
the english version is forever on loan whenever i went to the library.
hehe.
now that i start reading, omg i'm totally stuck with the book liao.
and i start thinking the eng one would be so much better.
oh well.

good thing about having sth to read is that i won't spend so much time on my com anymore.
haha.
bye people.

2011-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

happy new year!

2010-12-31T12:00:00.001+08:00

thank you-s to everyone who sent a christmas card back.
today's the last day of 2010.
i would like to use this day to reply all the cards.
hehe.
that sounds so 官方.
=.=

anyways, the order is by when i receive your card.

so don't sad if you placed very below or what hor.

elva~
your card was the first one that i received.
感动~~
hehe.
and yup.
one single sentence reply -- friends forever.
though i don't like to say this sentence.
i used to say this alot last time.
but now i try not to say it.
coz you will nv know what will happen in the future.

oh well.
but no i decided you will be special.
you shall be stuck with me forever.
muahahah..
hah.

okay enough of that evil laugh.

-.- at myself.

anyways, enjoy yourself in korea hor.

don't miss me too much.

haha.

jiejie~

the 2nd card that i received.

haah.

the sweet is not crushed.

on the contrary, it almost crush the card.

it got the marking now.

hehe.

and thanks for the bookmark.

it's nice.

^_^

anw i don't think we're in the generation to use letter/pigeon.

ha >.<

e-mail maybe ba.

but why didn't you mention sms?

isn't that supposed to be the most common?!

yup we can keep in contact with sms/call.

eh and i bet we can't find a pigeon which can deliver letter le.

haha.

jiayous working!

meimei~

the 3rd card that i received.

haha.

delivered by hand somemore.

thanks for the extra effort.

heh.

anyways, i wish you have a great year ahead too.

and thanks for your company these 2 years.

(;

mengyee~

haha.

include you also.

though you sent me an ecard.

but oh well..

it's still a card.

thanks!

it was quite interesting.

zuoer~

hehe.

my dear zuoer.

my first impression of your card is that it's very thick.

haha.

>.<

that's not the main point.

anw that's my first card from you.

finally sia.

eh wait..

okay i think everyone listed here is their first card to me.

-.-

despite me sending for a few years liao.

me sad sad.

but this year..

finally got some returns.

hehe.

okay enough of running out of point.

my reply to zuoer is -- i will be always be there for you to depend on.

hehe.

sorry.

i don't think you would have much chance of being my listening ear.

eh don't misunderstand.

is not coz of you.

is coz me don't like to talk.

i rather write all here.

so..

anyways, the result will still be the same.

you can still read my thoughts here.

hehe.

干妹妹～

heh.

my dear 干妹妹.

very long nv go out with you all le.

miss those times.

thanks for your card!

haha.

i wonder if you will see this.

gaoxin~

hah.

the most unexpected person that i tot i will receive a card from.

sorry that i didn't send to you.

i bought 10 cards and count all the ppl i sending le.

when i know that you sending one to me, it was too late liao.

so i shall send a cny card to you.

thanks for your card anyway!

it's cute.

haha.

another person that i wonder if you see this.

ha.

that's all the cards i received so far.

oh ya.

not forgetting nicholas de.

haven't receive yet.

hehe.

no need to keep saying sorry la.

i don't mind the late-ness.

你有那个心就够了.

okay.

yays.

all tgt -- there's 8.

out of 10 that i sent.

eh one i didn't send to.

so is 7 replied.

wow.

that's like the highest record so far.

thanks ppl.

you ppl rocks.

at least made me feel much better today.

coz poor me spending today very alone.

eh actually not very alone.

these few weeks been spending everyday at 恶作剧狂想吧.

haha.

the ppl there very friendly.

made quite a few friends.

one want to add me on their q (which is sth like our msn messenger).

then stunned when i say i singaporean.

haha.

the ppl mostly there are from china de.

and much younger than me.

=.=

hah.

thanks to them.

i don't feel very alone anymore.

anyone else bored can go there.

i'm 一珂爱畅晨的心 there by the way.

hehe.

almost all the stories there i reading.

okay.

i shall end my post liao.

it's getting very very long.

2010-12-30T14:50:00.002+08:00

sighs.
希望越大, 失望越大.
希望落空的时候还真难受.
我是怎么了...
好像越来越贪心了.
真的越来越不了解自己, 也越来越不喜欢这样的自己.

hehe.
无视上面的话吧.
some thoughts and feelings.

2010-12-27T08:41:00.004+08:00

haha.
about the job thingy.
decided to explain over here.
since it's like flooding the whole tagboard.

when i sign up for the job, he said that it will be 6 day work week and asked if i can work on sat.
shouldn't that mean like sun no work?!
anw i interpret as that.
so on sat..
he ask me to work on sun.
i say cannot.
coz ytd i really got sth on.
then he ask me whether it will happen on every sun.
i thinking usually sun got family gathering.
so i say ya most probably.
then he say he cannot accept that and ask me just don't go to the gatherings la.
and he said that i must follow his schedule, not he follow my schedule.
i told him you said that i can don't work on sun de, when i signing up that time.
he deny it and say i smoke him.
he say that he won't ever say that coz sun is the busiest day of all, he can't possibly allow me to not work on sun.
i was like wth.
he say he only said 6 day work week and i can choose one day off between mon and wed.
which is like totally not mentioned when we signed up.
anyways after that conversation, i was super irritated with him.
lucky he let me don't work ytd.
otherwise i think i will just scold him straight.
he said he will call me ytd to confirm with me what time to work today.
but ytd i was stressed for the whole day waiting for his call.
in the end he nv call!
zzz..
make me so stressed for nth.
anw i asked my friend whether she working today anot and she say he sms de.
i was quite happy.
that means no need to call him.
so i typed a very long msg to him explaining.
but he nv replied.
actually like that even more scary when he don't call or reply.
it's like you don't know what he's thinking.
then i wondered whether he did receive my msg anot.
so poor me worry about it the whole day ytd and the whole night.
sighs.
i wonder if he totally forgot about me after i didn't go to work for one day.
-.-
that shouldn't be true right?
okay i thinking too much le.
oh dear.
now i scared to walk to central there.

2010-12-26T09:00:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey..
merry christmas to everyone here!
haha.
lag by one day..
sorry for m.i.a-ing for 2 days.
which is basically the christmas eve and christmas itself.
poor me spend the 2 days working full day.
argh.
the more i think about it the more irritated i'm.

anyways, yup i found a job at the freshness burger that newly opened at century square.
went to see see on 23 dec and then fill in some form.
didn't expect i will get in.
the person called me at night at ten plus and just told me to start work at 8am the next day.
it's like wth.
so late notice sia.
and it's full day some more.

the first day was the grand opening.
and it's on christmas eve.
great.
loyal readers of my blog will know that every 平安夜 for me is like 灾难日.
lucky nth serious happen.
haha.
i'm still alive!
yays?!
anw, apparently the person who opened that shop didn't know that cs is ulu.
esp when they open at the place where long john silver used to be.
business was bad.
but my first day was still terrible.
was sent to the drinks station.
me who has a terrible memory has to rmb how to mix all the different drinks.
and the drinks there all have weird combinations.
then by break time which is like 4 plus, i alrdy had half a mind to quit liao.
not like the pay very high.
i don't understand why i work so hard for what.
me and the other friend that i made was discussing to quit during our break.
ha.
then i was sent home early.
was supposed to go home at ten plus.
and in the end went home at 7 plus.
i think partly coz business was seriously bad.
7 plus and there're nearly no customers.
shouldn't that be like peak hours?
-.-
then i don't want to work on christmas.
but he just point at me and say 'You, work tmr.'
and that's it.
poor me work on christmas liao.
wanted to reject.
and he said 'I'm not giving you an option. You have to.'
i was like wth again.
but i think nvm i bear with it.

christmas day.
went to work at 8am again.
this time was to be cashier.
haha.
but i think i press sth wrongly.
which i don't know what did i do wrong.
but apparently, he's irritated.
so he sent me to do floor.
which is the easier job of all.
i was happy.
just serve the food and clean the table and stuff.
until he called me to give out flyers.
i zzz..
first time he sent me out.
i was quite enthu.
alot ppl took my flyers.
apparently, coz i'm the happiest among all who's giving out flyers.
haha.
mrt there always got alot ppl giving out flyers.
it's like one whole row of ppl giving out sth.
ha.
those who always walk there will know what i mean.
anw my 'business' was better than the rest.
hehe.
coz of my enthu-ness.
then he sent me out the 2nd time.
i was still quite enthu.
then the 3rd time.
i give up le.
tired after standing for the whole day.
i just argh-ed and faster give out.
haha.
the difference is really big.
but anyways, everything was going well until going to end of work.
he ask me to work tmr (which is today) again.
ha.
this time i 坚持 i cannot work.
then he ask me is it that every sun i cannot work.
i thinking yup.
then he say cannot.
i was like why did you even bother asking.
anw his attitude/the way he talk seriously piss me off.
and ppl who know me know that i not that easily pissed off de.
argh.

so i been thinking for a night and decided to quit after all.
partly i considered so much coz i feel sorry that i pangseh-ed (eh dno how to spell) jiejie they all.
anw i'm very very very very stressed now!
the number of very-s cannot show how stressed i'm now.
coz i thinking how to tell the guy now that i want to quit.
i feel like being a coward and ask my father to talk to him.
i don't know.
what should i do sia.
zzz..

anyways, the only cards that i received are elva's and jiejie's.
anyone else sent me?

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-22T09:30:00.002+08:00

announcement~
everyone who still cannot manage to send me christmas card despite me sending that early, can send me cny cards instead.
haha.
i realised my skin getting thicker sia.
-end of announcement-

hehe.
post my tag here.
coz it's going to be flooded away soon i believe.
my tagboard became me and zuoer's personal chatbox liao.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
haha.
and i'm still 坚持-ing that i will receive a card from everyone who i sent one to.

anyways, sims 3 was a disappointment.
i have no idea whether it's coz of my windows com too old.
but it's lagging like siao.
and it's damn hard to navigate around now.
the additional features that sims 2 don't have is like 画蛇添足.
zzz..
the most terrible thing is that once it hang, i have to restart my com.
hating windows more and more by the moment.
i played for less than one hour just now and restarted like 4 times.
in the end gave up and came to my dear mac com.
haha.
oh well.
conclusion is that me as a sims fan is now totally frustrated with sims 3 and windows.

2010-12-21T16:11:00.001+08:00

woah.
the power of windows and emule~
thanks to them, i finally have sims 3.
hehe.

bye.
i go try it out now.

2010-12-20T08:11:00.003+08:00

heh.
sick of black skin.
so changed to this.
haha.
i lazy to make a new skin.
so i just change all the black to white and white to black.
conclusion is everything is still the same.
-.-
but sometimes it's nice to see a change of colors.

hee.
as i said, i ran out of pics.
so i post a random one.
it's cute.
hehe.

2010-12-17T13:15:00.002+08:00

woah.
i'm loving mac more and more by the moment~
my windows com can finally connect to the internet.
woo~
thanks to my dear mac com.
haha.
like that sounds like i 大忙人 -- need to have two com-s.

just that some thing really cannot be click-ed by mac.
which i didn't know.
then i just tried clicking on windows.
and *tada*
it worked.
haha.
it sounds so 白痴 now.
but seriously, i tried clicking on that for like n times where n tends to infinity.
ha just kidding.
not so many times la.
but i did try clicking on that for like 3 browsers.
all also no response.
thanks to elva ytd.
i went to try on windows.
heh.
and it worked!
haha.
just want to post to express my happiness.
>.<
you all can ignore me.
i'm just too happy now.

i love my mac~

2010-12-15T18:46:00.003+08:00

woah.
my hand very 'sour' now.
i just wrote like ten christmas cards?!
hah.
my right hand cannot type now.
coz i wrote for like two hours?
is like equivalent to econs paper.
-.- at myself.
why did i mention that of all subjects..
haha.
actually i feel tempted to write like jiejie a while ago.
like letters to everyone.
at here.
but in the end i wrote them in the cards.
so now don't want write here le.
later too 肉麻.
haha.
just kidding.
hee.
don't be too touched by me.
wow.
i realised i seriously become very 自恋.
oh dear..
pretend you all nv see the above few sentences.
don't spoil the image of me.
haha.

anw my main purpose of this post is to inform you all~
those who are reading this most probably will receive a card from me.
so pls open your letterbox like 3/4 days later.
and it's called 礼貌 that you send one back to me.
haha.
this sounds like a threat.
okay i'm just joking.

actually i post this to complain of my hand's sour-ness.
hehe.

okay i will leave now.
to rest my poor right hand.
it feels weird to write now after a few weeks of 'non-writing'.
haha.

2010-12-14T09:22:00.003+08:00

was watching the korean veresion of iswak.
but i stopped at the 4th episode.
the more i watch, the more i miss the taiwanese version.
in the end, i end up watching my dvd which is the taiwanese version instead.
this problem i believe is not i anti-korean.
but rather with the interaction between the female and male lead.
i may be biased.
but the interaction between the female and male korean lead seem unnatural.
to me, they're just following what they're told to act.
?!
i don't know if anyone else has this feeling.

in contrast, arjoe seem so natural tgt.
every little action seems to come out of their heart.

okay you ppl can say i'm biased.
but i gave up watching the korean version.
after 坚持-ing for 4 episodes.
i guess i can watch so much after all it's coz of the male lead.
it's nice to see the contrast compared to boys over flowers.

the sad thing is now i don't have anything to watch now.
anyone recommend sth to watch?

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险
请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

我才发现你很耀眼
请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧

2010-12-11T12:20:00.002+08:00

phew.
went out everyday this week.
finally a day to spend at home.

watched 'confessions' at gv yishun ytd.
ha.
nc16 show.
time flies.
gone was the time where we scared they check our ic and don't let us in.
in fact we totally forgot about the checking ic part.
i just suddenly rmb-ed.
-.-
anw that's not the main point.
the show was hmm..evil?!
revenge was the word.
haha.
funny thing is i was reading the eng subtitles (it's japanese btw.) and i found one of the characters de name very familiar.
naoki.
hah.
i lag for a while then i realised it's 直樹.
coz the anime also got this name.
and i decided the 直樹 better off with 湘琴.
this one is evil.
haha.
anw the cinema was so ulu.
and it was my first time i went to northpoint.
ha.

hmm..
i over-spent this week sia.
time to look for work next week.
i shall continue slacking today and tmr.
hehe.

very happy now.
coz i just watched 'despicable me'.
finally.
enough of watching online sia.
watch a while lag a while.
zzz..
just dl and watch.
it's worth dl-ing.

okay i'm off to watch more shows~
tag-s please.
hehe :P

2010-12-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

寫給母親的一封信～

當您讀這封信時, 您已經離開我一年了.
您的突然離開讓我不得不在一夜之間成熟起來.
不能再依賴著一個人..
要學著怎麼樣自己處理事情.

這一年來, 發生了許多事.
有開心的, 難過的.
我都想和你分享.
但你已經不在了.

發生這麼多事我相信是老天爺給我的考驗.
一次一次地打擊著我..
很慶幸的, 我都熬過去了.
我相信, 無論如何, 你都會在天上看著我, 守護著我.

一年了, 不知道你過得好不好.
沒有我在你身邊, 你是否會照顧好自己..
忽然間, 我的人生充滿了'不知道'.
有誰能回答我呢..

任何言語也無法代表我對你的思念.
我只能說～
我想你.